I'm suicidal and not doing great

I hope you feel better soon!
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How are you ????

I echo Christina:. How are you???

Hey guys,

I'm OK thanks. Still the same but a bit better. Just had 12 hours sleep but feeling shattered but hey ho. Best start my day right?

Called the Samaritans last night I'm feeling unsafe in my flat and outside incase I do something.

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Are you talking to your sister? Can you go stay with her for a few days?? That's always helped in the past.. Stay safe

I hope you feel safe and well soon. I had a prolonged depressed period in July-August & SI filled my thoughts. I can't believe I contemplated such actions now; time sometimes heals. I hope this happens for you. Take care.

I'm feeling a little bit better. My nurse was meant to call yesterday (Monday) but didn't. You forget your just a number on their books huh.

Still feeling unsafe outside tbh

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My case manager told me today in person that she "cares for" me. I was taken aback. I always guessed that my pdoc does but not my case manager. Maybe your treatment team actually does care for you and they just haven't had the opportunity to tell you this?

I'm feeling much better today this whole day has been a good day. I'm getting to go back to my volunteering as of next Thurs I will be helping run a photography group can't wait never done this before

I guess your right I just can't see it though tbh!

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Originally Posted by Miss Laura I'm feeling much better today this whole day has been a good day. I'm getting to go back to my volunteering as of next Thurs I will be helping run a photography group can't wait never done this before I guess your right I just can't see it though tbh! Sent from my SM-G980F using Tapatalk

I'm so glad you're feeling improved, and the group sounds wonderful!

Thank goodness, you're doing better. Hang in there!! I have not been suicidal in years but can tell you that life does improve with time. I was suicidal on risperidone and got off it. Then, put on many meds afterward that made me even sicker. Now, after many years later, I am on one med and doing great. I feel that at times the medication can adversely affect your mood. I don't know the reason for my depression on risperidone but am now much better on Abilify- it has antidepressant effects too. I am doing well and hope one day you feel better too. Life is a journey.

I know it's probably pretty chilly there in Scotland. Nonetheless, try to get some exercise. Hopefully your sister would hike around with you.
Mental health organizations in the States are getting a lot better in recognizing how vital exercise is to mental health.

I know what you mean.

I'm glad you're feeling better though

@Miss Laura Hi Laura. Hope you are ok today. It's nice to see someone else on here from Scotland. I've lived here for over 11 years. Hope you are getting support from those close to you. Sending you (((((hugs)))))

I found out I'm almost half Scottish based on my ethnicity estimate -- I'd love to see my "homeland" one day

It's beautiful here. You should definitely visit Scotland, you would love it and the accent is great. I'm originally from Liverpool and my family are mostly from Isle of Man, Ireland and Liverpool.

Hey guys,

Thank you for the replies. I had a good week last week was away to a lodge with a hot tub in Central Scotland. Went a few day on trips to wee places like villages. Then went to Bannockburn where us Scots fought the English army in 1314. Very interesting. No rain at all in 5 days. Hot tub amazing.

This week we'll actually last week when I was away I found out that my downstairs neighbours bathroom window had been smashed in. When I got home on Fri it was boarded up I checked my windows. My livingroom window the opposite side to the bathroom window was cracked... this has set my paranoia spiralling out of control. Tonight I'm on my Sister's sofa as last night I was scared to sleep. I kept hearing noises etc.

Window has been measured to be fitted with double glazed window now. Unsure when that will be.

So I'm back to sleeping on sofas after only a few months in my own bedroom in 4 years. Oh well set backs are bound to happen.

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@Miss Laura I don't blame you for sleeping on couches after something like that. That would rev up my paranoia too!