[iTeach123]

Hi guys. I’m new here; I’ve started seeing a therapist who seems to really be helping me. We are doing EMDR. I struggle with many things but Bipolar 2 is my number one. I think my other diagnoses are due to bipolar.
Anyways. My moms whole family is bipolar; some of us are diagnosed and seek help, most of them refuse to admit it and laugh in our faces when we try talking about our diagnosis. I’m currently feeling a manic episode. I have become aware of my feelings all of a sudden and 2 days ago, I noticed my head was really loud, my eyes were big, I was spending lots of money, making risky plans. Of course I stopped because I recognized it but I’m so worried it’s going to be full blown soon because each day has gotten worse and worse. Someone give me some tips or positive vibes please. This is the most miserable thing; I’m trying to leave my mom and her family behind because they’re so bad for me and my mental health but I’m constantly reminded by this disorder that I can’t run away from the problems. Im so overwhelmed and sad but I can’t show that. I physically can’t show that I’m feeling sad, I’m too hyper and bouncy. Because I’m manic. I want to be sad though I really do. 😭

[HALLIEBETH87]

How do you like emdr? I did it for a while! We’re taking a break but the memory we were working on barely bothers me anymore!

[iTeach123]

Originally Posted by HALLIEBETH87

How do you like emdr? I did it for a while! We’re taking a break but the memory we were working on barely bothers me anymore!

I’ve only had 2 sessions for EMDR. This past Wednesday we focused on a small impact thing. It was regarding something very little that gave me anxiety for the first time, as a 2nd grader. As we did EMDR and focused on that memory, I was thrown into a full blown panic attack; my check was too heavy to breathe, the pain of it was going around my side into my back, I was sweating, shaking, crying. My therapist had to calm me down, and it took a solid 10 minutes for me to calm down. She told me it could continue for a few days, and it sure did! I was so anxious from Wednesday evening through early Saturday morning. It was about 4 am, and I was still awake because I couldn’t sleep. I finally fell asleep and slept for 6 hours and woke up feeling okay! When I think back to that memory; I don’t really feel anything. I don’t get anxious, or sad, or anything! It’s just a memory. So I think it’s going to work, and I’m so excited for it. I don’t talk about things I’ve been through; I can try for hours to get stuff to come out about my childhood but nothing ever does. So I’m hopeful this will help me!

[HALLIEBETH87]

Do you practice your safe space?

[iTeach123]

Originally Posted by HALLIEBETH87

Do you practice your safe space?

I didn’t during my first try with emdr. I totally forgot about it, until seeing your comment! But thankfully it was a low impact, and I know for future appointments to use it! Thank you for the reminder!

[Pinny]

I just wanted to say I hope your episode passes, iTeach123.

Family’s and relationships can be very challenging, especially when it comes to mental health.

I hope you don’t mind me saying that that I think you might have meant “hypomania” and not “mania” in your title.. Just incase someone gets offended.
Mania is not usually associated with bipolar type 2 and the definition is due to the impact it has on your life. Being able to stop because you recognise things is less likely with mania. I don’t mean to cause offence or anything.

[Fuzzybear]

I also was wondering how you find/like emdr?

[Fuzzybear]

Originally Posted by iTeach123

I’ve only had 2 sessions for EMDR. This past Wednesday we focused on a small impact thing. It was regarding something very little that gave me anxiety for the first time, as a 2nd grader. As we did EMDR and focused on that memory, I was thrown into a full blown panic attack; my check was too heavy to breathe, the pain of it was going around my side into my back, I was sweating, shaking, crying. My therapist had to calm me down, and it took a solid 10 minutes for me to calm down. She told me it could continue for a few days, and it sure did! I was so anxious from Wednesday evening through early Saturday morning. It was about 4 am, and I was still awake because I couldn’t sleep. I finally fell asleep and slept for 6 hours and woke up feeling okay! When I think back to that memory; I don’t really feel anything. I don’t get anxious, or sad, or anything! It’s just a memory. So I think it’s going to work, and I’m so excited for it. I don’t talk about things I’ve been through; I can try for hours to get stuff to come out about my childhood but nothing ever does. So I’m hopeful this will help me!

Thanks for sharing this

[Crazy Hitch]

I hope this passes for you soon. Might be impossible, but if you can, try stick to your sleep schedule and knock back on the caffeine. Okay says me cos when I'm hypo not much helps really but I know coffee can make my symptoms worse.