[xRavenx]

There is someone at work that I do not get along with. She was in my office, and I don't think she is trustworthy and that she is trying to get ahead. I had an intrusive thought after her being in my office that she was recording me with her phone in my office when I was talking to her.

I did not engage in any misconduct, but I had a feeling she would show it to my boss and that they would find something on it to hold against me and try to get me fired after having the compliance officer view the tape and that they would find something they don't like. I do not have any clear evidence that she was recording me or any specific clues. But I saw her holding her phone, which got my mind racing. I only feel that way because I do not trust her anymore. Now, I think there's going to be an investigation about me starting tomorrow.

I can't get these intrusive thoughts out of my head. Does any of this sound rational?

[Moose72]

This reminds me of last week when I thought the ultrasound tech had gotten into my purse. Beth told me that it's likely that she didn't but I couldn't shake the thought. Intrusive thoughts suck. Do you have a prn you can take- haldol maybe?

[xRavenx]

Originally Posted by Moose72

This reminds me of last week when I thought the ultrasound tech had gotten into my purse. Beth told me that it's likely that she didn't but I couldn't shake the thought. Intrusive thoughts suck. Do you have a prn you can take- haldol maybe?

Sorry that you were going through that! It's terrible. I only have klonopin as a PRN, and it helps with the heart palpitations and hypervigilance, but it doesn't help me with the thoughts.

[*Beth*]

I'm so sorry you're going through one of these damn things. I'll tell you the same thing I told Moose last week...the scenario your mind is a lot more likely your imagination running wild and taking you into a place of delusion, than it is a likely reality. So to answer your question, no. Your scenario doesn't sound rational.

[Soupe du jour]

Hi xRavenx. I quite agree with BethRags on this an this type of paranoia has happened to me many times in the past, as Moose said it happened to her. It certainly seems you are under stress, which may be affecting your stability and thought processes. I hope you bring this up with your therapist and/or psychiatrist immediately.

It's horrible when we have a sort of foe (or foes) at the workplace, but it's definitely not uncommon. I've had many (Ohhh yeh!) And truth was that I had colleagues that noticed behavior that was concerning (to put it mildly) and communicated that to management and Human Resources. I'm not saying your colleague(s) are doing so, but that instability can cause it to be so. You questioning the rationality of your thoughts could be a lucky opportunity for you to manage your illness before it escalates further. What's worse is when we have delusions that we don't question as possibly false. That's when delusion truly becomes delusion.

[Moose72]

I need to say that I am once again feeling very paranoid and it's going to ruin things for tomorrow. I wish nobody would mention this subject at all- tomorrow- and I will regret having posted about it so freely. People can find me very easily if they wanted to. I made a big mistake when I signed into this forum - and I can't tell you how because they will know. I'm sorry but it's the truth. Yes I took my prn haldol. No it's not helping. Watching Golden Girls.

[Werewoman]

Whout more evidence, past or present, I would say it's irrational and ignore it. No point in getting worked up.

[Crazy Hitch]

I hate those types of paranoid delusions but I think you’ve nailed it for what it is - a mere intrusive thought. Last year I thought my boss had put a device into my work laptop to monitor everything I was doing at home. Went so far as to look for cameras behind the tv.

How did work land up being?

[xRavenx]

Originally Posted by Crazy Hitch

I hate those types of paranoid delusions but I think you’ve nailed it for what it is - a mere intrusive thought. Last year I thought my boss had put a device into my work laptop to monitor everything I was doing at home. Went so far as to look for cameras behind the tv.

How did work land up being?

Work seems to be fine right now... but I have these thoughts that behind the scenes my boss is going to listen to a recording that the co-worker took and is not telling me about the investigation right now. I am trying to block it out though. If a few weeks go by and nothing happens, then I'll be able to put these thoughts to rest.