Bipolar Check-in #74

I had a job interview with Burger King the other day. I didn’t get the job though. It was my first job interview, I was very nervous. It was really disappointing. I’ll admit that I cried after I followed up and found out I didn’t get it. But I think it’s for the best. I probably wouldn’t do well in fast food. I’m not good with stress or fast paced environments. There’s still like 16 other places I applied to so hopefully I hear something and get something eventually.

Volunteering with the Kitten Angels program is going well still.

I’m tired. Slept just 3 hours last night. I barely slept the past week. I keep stopping some of my meds randomly. I need to start taking them again though. 35-40 hours at a time without sleep is making me feel miserable.

I’ll catch up here over the weekend

Hugs to everyone

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I got an appointment with the gastro doctor for Monday. I called and they had a cancellation. I'm glad because I can avoid the ER now. Well, hopefully. I can mostly just stomach rice cakes and bread now. And I'm still feeling off. I had some Diet Cokes from Sonic that were ok. My mom came back from the store and she had gotten me these 2 SpongeBob chocolate Easter bars that were on cleareance and my stomach got all queasy just looking at them. It was nice of her though. I went to the Asian and Mexican grocery stores this morning. Nothing too exciting. I just bought some of my regular stuff.

But yeah if I can stick to whatever is safest on my stomach even if its super restrictive, think I'll be ok until Monday.

All things considering mood and anxiety wise I'm better then yesterday. That must have just been fogginess because of the Benadryl. Also Bentyl does help my anxiety.

My interview with the institute is like to do my masters practicum at went well. They actually offered me a placement! Now I just have to see if I can make it work!!!!!

Hahaha ! Love it

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Oh how scary ! Yes set the alarm to notify you! I’m sorry your not fully back on your feet. When will the pool open ? Your so due for some floating

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Have a wonderful time

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Sorry about not getting the job but I will say most fast food places seem to treat employees pretty bad. That’s probably why they are always needing help. Good for you going in the interview tho. I’m sure you will hear back on a better job situation.

Enjoy the Kitty’s !!

Hope you sleep better tonight

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Nammu.. I’m so sorry you’re having to make a move and just not an ideal situation either. I think it sucks your being rushed ! You’re Mum had made her wishes known and they should be honored.

Can I slap someone for you ??

As for moving into a much smaller place. That’s tough as hell if you have to give up things. Maybe you can find bookshelves that will work better in a small place ? Amanda has a real small place and she bought some “ floating shelves” to add to her actual book shelf. She has a lot scattered around. I think that’s what there called to have room for her collections of books.

Loads of hugs hun and scratches for Sir

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Soupe sending you love and hugs for your upcoming trip to the states

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Is this different behavior for her? A lot of the time when elderly people have behavioral changes like this they have urinary tract infections. Even if she usually has some confusion if it is any worse it may be worth getting her checked.

Ooh yes, that is so true. Mum got an uti and it changed her personality, her became mean and obstinate. Then she wanted to sleep all the time. The antibiotics returned her to normal

I'm basically all packed to go to the US early next week. I just have to pack my electronics and their US charging cords, and shut the luggage. I didn't want to have any more stress than needed. Hubby is finally setting up the printer so he can print our airline tickets. If he struggles, we can always ask his sister. I will also need to spruce myself up before I leave. The only other thing to do is finalize an airport pickup for me. I am not renting a car, and even if I did, I'd be too afraid to drive it from the airport. When Hubby comes, he'll rent and drive a car. As we're arriving at a further away than usual airport, it's a hassle. If we'd been able to fly to the usual one, in a worst case scenario I could have taken the train to a station that my sister would have been OK picking me up from. Oh well! She'd be too afraid to drive to/from my arrival airport, too. Most people would.

The whole situation feels so complex! I wish my husband could be with me in the US the whole time, but he can't.

Ooo soupe that sounds scary. I’d be afraid of driving from a major airport too. As it is I don’t drive in Rochester because they are nuts over there. Sending you good vibes to get though the airport. I’ll pocket ride that day.

Thanks for this. I will schedule an appointment next week to get her checked. She generally does have confusion but this is different behavior for her.

I got a text with a picture this morning. M got engaged! So happy for them both. Guess I better start sprucing myself to attend a wedding. Hope it’s a few months out. We’ve got a trip to the mountains, Florida and a family reunion over the next several months.

I hope everybody has a peaceful day.

Thanks, Nammu! And I'm with you. I don't like driving in big cities period. The airport I'm arriving in is JFK Int'l which is east of Manhattan in Jamaica, NY (south of Queens). You have to struggle to drive in horrible traffic through the city on major highways. My family is from a small town on the NJ/PA border.

Uff da! JFK! I’ve heard their traffic is a nightmare. Up in the twin cities I often took the buss to the airport because it drove right up to the terminals. Of course now it may be different because of terrorism. In Texas I often took taxis even with the surcharge it was cheaper than long term parking, and again they drove right up to the terminals. But now days there’s Uber too. I haven’t been to an airport since 2017. I avoid them if at all possible.

Cut and dyed my hair today. Got my toenails
Painted too. Feeling anxious but not as
Bad as it has been.

Not much going on. I didnt sleep good because I restricted too much, and today I'm tired from last night and because I'm still restricting. I want to eat a crap ton of pies from Perkins but I don't feel like getting up to get a rice cake even.

Mood and anxiety wise I'm fine besides the low energy. I made it to the Dollar Store at 8AM without any anxiety or issues. I've just been crashed ever since in front of the TV.

That bentyl sure causes increased thirst. I'm sure my therapist would be happy at all the rice cakes and Diet Cokes I've been eating and drinking. Idk. Maybe I'll try twizzlers or something.

I am getting my hair colored and cut today too at a beauty school. which I have gone to for over 18 years.
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I hope everyone is doing as well as possible

I hope your flight goes well @Soupe du jour

I’m so tired today. I’ve been sleeping a lot. But I got outside and spent some time in the sunshine today. There’s a visible meteor shower tonight but it’s so cloudy. I told my husband to wake me up at midnight so I can see if it’s visible.
I’m away to have a sleep,

Ohio valley allergies are awful! Back to taking Allegra daily!

It's getting close to April 28th, the day that my mood switched into hypomania last year. I'm monitoring things closely and have no signs, but i didn't last year either. Of course last year i was on an anti-depressant, so i'm hopeful that i will skip the whole ordeal this year. Fingers crossed!

I haven't tuned-in to the weekend news in ages. I did today and was pleasantly surprised to see there is now a woman anchor who is fat. It's so encouraging to see a diversity of sizes portrayed onscreen.

It was a beautiful afternoon and my dog and i sat outside in the dog-park taking in the day and chatting with my neighbors.

Happy Earth Day!

This is a very good thing to do! I know because I also have a history of manias beginning in the spring. Most of my psych hospitalizations were in the spring and some in the summer (usually ones from the spring that came back).

Woke in the middle of the night and can't get back to sleep. I'm trying my new full-spectrum CBD oil for anxiety. Hopefully that will help me get back to sleep soon.

Family is driving me nuts!!! Just found out that my husband's oldest sister (who we're quite close to) is planning to move again, less than 6 months after selling her house and buying a large, expensive 3-bedroom condo. She lives with her adult daughter (who is just 5 years younger than me) and the daughter's boyfriend.


I was a bit jealous when they bought the condo as they are living in a city about an hour's drive from us that is a near paradise for seniors (Sister in is 72). I'm not exaggerating - they are 1 block from a 50+ community centre that is one of the best anywhere - so much so that visitors from around the world come to view and study it. I know this because my mother used to live in the same neighborhood. This huge seniors' centre has hundreds of classes, clubs and meetings that are free or cheap - everything from card clubs to art classes and fitness classes. Plus social programs and outreach, cheap meals and snacks, etc My mother performed in their theatre troupe and took many classes there and she still goes there regularly as she gets the free bus from her independent living residence. My mother moved to that city at 65 and had the best social life she'd ever had (she's now 83 and literally can't walk through the little mall across from the seniors' centre without running into several people she knows).


Anyway, I would love to live in that city (it also has a thriving arts community aside from the centre) but like everywhere else in our part of the world, real estate has been incredibly inflated in price in recent years. It's not really a rich neighborhood as most of the residents moved in long before the surge in prices. But now it's minimum 400K for a 1-bedroom condo in that area. My husband and I had to move further out to a smaller city. OUR city's seniors' centre is a 1-room storefront that offers knitting club, lawn bowling and square dancing.


But it's all lost on my sister-in-law as she isn't interested in any classes or programs or making new friends, and only spends time with her daughter. They have a laundry list of complaints about the new condo including that it is too bright of all things (the daughter gets migraines and doesn't work). Anyway, they have moved 6 times in the last 15 years so it's not new. Despite the fact they are now within easy walking distance of everything (I think the Google maps walking score for their new area is 10/10) they still spend most of their time in their car and the daughter drives them around on errands, medical appointments and buying stuff for the home. Now they're talking about moving far away and buying another house.


Despite my frustration, I love and care about them and would be so sad to see them move where we can't see them anymore. They are our closest family distance-wise. And my husband and I had thought of moving to that city one day when we are older if we can get into the seniors' housing there.

We are trying to talk them into moving to our city if they move, but they might not be able to afford a house here that is to their liking. Despite how it sounds, they are not rich and were just able to afford the condo because of the sale of their house (which like most in our region quadrupled in price in the last 15 years).

Sigh.

All my family and friends are just getting further and further away.