[LadyShadow]

Just obsessing about the past today and it's brought my mood down. I let so many years go by and did nothing with my life. Now I'm in a position where my life is about to be decided and not by me.

I keep thinking about so many things I could have done with my life and now it looks like I am going to have a record that is already stopping me from getting a good job. I feel so hopeless, but my meds keep me balanced so I guess this overall numbness is supposed to be normal?

How I envy all of you who have therapists. Been trying for months to get one. My therapist of 12 years died a few years ago due to covid complications. I haven't been able to find a therapist since.

God, sometimes I wonder why I even bother or try.

[CANDC]

@LadyShadow I am sorry for the losses you feel estpecially your long time therapist. That must be rough for you.

I have made bad decisions also and I have suffered from them. I have run those scenarios over and over in my mind. There is just nothing I can do to change the past. I am trying to make something out of today. Writing this note to you has been a start.

I hope you get the support you are looking for. @CANDC

[Rose76]

I'm sorry you are feeling so bad. It's very true that what we've done, or not done, in the past leaves us consequences in the present that can cause us regret. We sure can't change even one minute of the past. I hope you have some luck in the near future . . . something to give you some hope. Once in a while, life surprises us.

[dmom3005]

I am sorry life keeps remind you that its not always nice. I really hope you can forget the consequences and live in the present. And change the present to reflect the things that you want to
change from the past.

Donna

[Tart Cherry Jam]

Where is your location? Have you researched local laws concerning employment eligibility after a criminal conviction?

[Fuzzybear]