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Wise Elder
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#561
10 years ago when I moved into this house my therapist told me I'd know I was settled into my home when I knew where the light switches are. That seemed sensible until this morning when I woke up in the middle of the night to go to the bathroom and apparently didn't know where the entire door was. I smacked straight into the doorframe with my forehead. I've gone to the bathroom in the dark a thousand times here but this morning I guess I just forgot. I'm fine, just a bump and a bruise. This has not been my month.
Still anxious about my therapist going on medical leave but trying to stay calm about it. I can't do much about it until I can talk to him next week. And I'm not sure even that is going to help much. What's he supposed to say, that he won't do it because I'm anxious? I think this is also raising anxiety about what it will be like when he retires in 2 years and this feels like a practice run for that. I keep trying to remember this will be completely over in 12 weeks or less and that is not such a long time. __________________ Bipolar 1, PTSD, GAD, OCD. Clozapine 250 mg, Emsam 12 mg/day patch, topamax 25 mg, ,Gabapentin 1700 mg & 100-2 PRN,. 1.5 mg clonazepam., 50 mg Seroquel |
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Member Since Oct 2004
Location: usa
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#562
Been feeling damn bugs crawling on me
Tonight. Can’t wait to pick up my meds From pharmacy tomorrow. __________________ Bipolar 1 w/psychotic features or schizoaffective bipolar type PTSD generalized anxiety OCD celexa, prazosin, Lybalvi and prn zyprexa and klonopin |
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Location: Where the sidewalk ends
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#563
Last night was kinda scary. I was sleeping and then I woke up coughing and then I started just puking my guts out. Like really forcefully. Something is not right. No way is that normal.
I've decided to go on my trip tommorow. Last night spooked me a bit. Today wasn't terrible. I went and did a grocery pick up. My stomach was fairly calm until I went to lie down and threw up a bunch of raspberries. I have some pain and cramping. But I have my Carhart sling backpack packed for tommorow and I'll see how I handle things any better then being at home. I woke up because of loud fireworks and because I had a dream where I was getting my period and I needed food fast or I'd have a freak out. I haven't gotten a period since April 6th 2020. The cramps were just stomach related stuff. I've been eating a lot of grain free pasta and fruit. Last edited by Mountaindewed; Yesterday at 10:24 PM.. |
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Location: USA
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#564
@Mountaindewed I hope you are able to enjoy your trip and that your health issues don't really act up while you are on it!
I found a friend who is willing to stay the night with me when I get my endoscopy! My friends are saints. Since I don't have family here, my friends have done a ton for me these past few years to help me out, including when I couch hopped for six weeks when I first, in a very unexpected turn of events, ended up moving back here with 48 hours notice. Counseling went okay today. It's an adjustment getting used to this new counselor because she has a plan of strategies she wants to teach me but I do more talking/filling in her in on things with my other counselor. This new counselor wants me to practice two different strategies each day (twice a day per strategy) and to take notes on how they go. After counseling, I got lunch with a friend and went with her to see Inside Out 2. I'm noticing a new pattern when I'm pretty depressed-even though I know how miserable it is, I find myself tempted to try and trigger hypomanic, or even full on manic, symptoms. A bipolar buzz just sounds better than depression sometimes and I think it's just my brains way of telling me it wants an escape from reality. __________________ Lamotrigine: 300 mg Bupropion: 150 mg Risperidone: 1-3 mg a day, depending on symptoms |
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Member Since May 2012
Location: North Carolina, USA. Originally New York
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#565
Just kind of sitting existing today. Just in a lull period I guess with not a whole lot going on. Just really tired and moody. This thing about my thyroid really being off scares me, but it does make sense as to why I can't lose any weight. I know my diet is horrible, and I am not doing much of any exercise. Just feel like I am drowning a bit. God, why aren't we ever just happy?
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