Bipolar Check-in #80

I have my meeting with social security tomorrow morning then after that I have work from 1pm to 10pm. Im there till closing so I’ll probably be in the store like 30 minutes after 10pm the. But time I get the bus I won’t get home till around midnight. It’s gonna be a long day. Then I have to be up by 6am Friday to get ready for work again. Whoever designed retail schedules to be the way they are is out of their mind.

I have Saturday and Sunday off which is nice.

Then next week I work Monday, Tuesday, Thursday, Friday and Saturday. My first paycheck will be on July 12th. Which will include two full weeks work plus orientation so it should be around $700 which isn’t bad.

I have a little notebook they gave me so I can take notes when I’m on the sales floor tomorrow training with someone. Hopefully it’s not too overwhelming. I’m gonna do my best. I think I get an hour lunch break because I’m gonna be there for 9 hours tomorrow.

Also I love their break room. It’s not tiny like the break rooms at my other jobs. It’s actually pretty large. The other ones were uncomfortably tiny where you’d be all up in other people’s space unintentionally cause they were so damn small and cramped. Where it felt very awkward.

Within a few months I should be back ahead financially, I’m excited to learn my job. It’s gonna be a lot to learn but I know I can do it.

I slept well last night and I took all my meds and they stayed down. I woke up at 6 feeling pretty good for once. I got a smores iced oatmilk latte from Dunkin Donuts and that was fine on my stomach. I swear something is just up with that one coffee shop.

I don't have any plans today. The kids are coming over tonight. I need to get more fruit. Mainly I'm just glad for a break in things.

I just saw some gal that was somewhere along my mental health treatment journey on the news! I'm pretty sure she was the one that was in my transitional housing intake but told me she wouldn't do my application because "we want our clients to be successful." She was talking about high school girls and depression/suicidality. Yeah. Girls would be suicidal if they knew they'd be entering a world where if they tried getting out of a shyt situation, no one's going to help because it might look bad on their rap sheet.

Today is my birthday! I stayed the whole day at home though even though I got all dressed up anyway. I had so many plans in Raleigh today, but they honestly forecasted 107 degrees as the high today, and I don't know what it was, but I didn't want to push my car in all of that heat. I take care of my things, especially my car, and I want them to last a long time. So, boohoo, my full day of plans were canceled.

But it's been a wonderful birthday. I relaxed, and spent the day with my boyfriend, which I wanted to do anyway despite all my plans. I feel good I dressed up and took pictures and ordered Outback Steakhouse for dinner as my birthday treat. The great news is my birthday doesn't just have to be just for today. The people had plans with just said we can celebrate all month!! LOL. I have plans for Friday and Saturday so that should be good.

Happy Birthday @LadyShadow !