Bipolar Check-in #83

I’m new to this whole getting your skin checked out thing. Never done it before. Hoping they’re not going to find anything they need to biopsy. I’ll let you know how I go.

I've had several moles removed in the past and never needed stitches. This was the first time I ever needed stitches after the initial biopsy, same doctor the past 4 or 5 times. I think if the moles come back mildly abnormal, most doctors don't require a 2nd biopsy. If the mole is severely abnormal, a 2nd biopsy is needed if the margins are not clear to be sure all of the mole is removed. If the mole is moderately abnormal, I think the call is up to the doctor whether to remove it to get clean margins if the margin isn't clear. My biopsy was moderately abnormal.

IDK, every time in the past when I've had a mole removed, the doctor removed it all, but this mole I have is particularly large, and she shaved off some for the initial biopsy and I can still see the edges of the mole around the stitches.

Well I got the all clear. Didn’t have to remove anything, fortunately. He will keep an eye on a mole on my back and one on my foot. Don’t have to go back for another year. Phew.

Tried watching YouTube to relax but somehow couldn’t skip the political ads! That made me anxious. Hoping the gabapentin will help with that.

@Moose72 I wonder if YouTube is pulling back on the number of adds you can skip/which ones. I use YouTube videos a lot at work and I can't skip over adds like I used to. It's so frustrating, especially because I never know what kind of add is going to start up while I'm showing a video to my students. I hope the gabapentin helped with your anxiety!


Today has been a good day, but it sure did go by fast. I got about 12 hours of sleep so that had me feeling pretty good. Today, I've gone to Mass, gone grocery shopping, and got some school work done. I was also able to go for a walk outside which was a treat because the weather has been over 100 degrees here up until very recently. It's supposed to climb up towards 100 again this week though...

mu husband is eating tortilla chips louder than any person ive ever heard and im trying to do homewokr. theres no where for me to go. im about to confiscate all the chips. OMFG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Totally wiped from the weekend. Went to two churches today - and Saturday was just crazy with the Fall Festival and meeting all my friends. Wrote a blog post today about what I was the proudest of in my life and I have to say it is my sobriety - without that my mental health would be so much worse.

I hope everyone had a great weekend though! My period is about to make an appearance too @raspberrytorte and its never good when it comes. I started panicking today too because I thought I lost my necklace with my cross but when it fell off my neck, it fell into my bra, lol. I was going crazy in the house till I finally was getting ready for a shower and found it. Phew! So lucky!

The Apple Store just fixed my iPad. I’m so stoked. The on off button was stuck in so it wasn’t charging. They fixed it and now it is charging perfectly fine. I’m so happy. I have to let it charge for a while now because it was completely dead but once she powers up I’m going to be listening to music with headphones 🎧.
I should start a gratitude journal. Seriously.

Everyplate charged me even after I cancelled. Not just that because it was PayPal they took it from a card they weren't authorized to. So now my parents are $100 short and they still have to go to FL to fix their trailer that got hit by Milton. I feel like such a **** up. It'll take 5-10 days to refund.

Damnit. I posted too soon. Get home and my iPad won’t charge. It charged in the store!

[QUOTE=June08;7449095]@Moose72 I wonder if YouTube is pulling back on the number of adds you can skip/which ones. I use YouTube videos a lot at work and I can't skip over adds like I used to. It's so frustrating, especially because I never know what kind of add is going to start up while I'm showing a video to my students. I hope the gabapentin helped with your anxiety![\quote]

It did! Now I can’t watch YouTube till the election is over.

Yesterday was a big day. I think we found our dream house and ti looks like we may get it. Nobody else has put in an offer so it's just us bidding. The offer goes in today and I don't know how long they get to counter. It is so nice that living in the basement will be 25% larger than this house where I've lived for 10 years and it will also be the nicest place I've ever lived--wood working instead of plastic, wood doors, etc. Plus it has big closets. Huge compared to here. This makes leaving here easier. But there's still the process. We have to get the house and then we have to get through inspection. But I am really hopeful for this one.

We got home and I got a fraud alert from my bank. I wasn't sure it was real until I got home and i had a detailed email about it waiting for me. Someone used my card in Flnt MI to buy $100 of gas or stuff at a gas station. And I definitely wasn't in Flint today. In fact the last time I was in Michigan was New Years day 2001 when we left with q UHaul of my stuff to move to my home state. That was a really bad winter and it was really icy with the UHaul.
So now I have to go get a new card in the morning. .Which is too bad since I had this card # memorized and I'll have to start again.

I came home and fell asleep earlier than usual so now I've been up for quite a while. Maybe I can get back to sleep now.

I’m going to the credit union to deposit my bipolar study check.

Do you think maybe it’s the cord your using that’s not working?

Thinking of stopping the trazidone, seeing if that helps. Can't be like this. I texted my mom how much of a **** up I am at 2 am and how I'm sorry for my existence. That I don't mean it and I'm sorry I took what little they had because of my stupidness.

I deposited my bipolar study check and made a big payment on my credit card at the credit union this morning. Now I have enough for gas in my checking account which should last until the first. After the first I can pay off the rest of the credit card balance which is more like a normal payment. Stupid mania! Most of that came from September not October so I guess I was getting hypomanic back then.

I'm glad you figured it out. I'm having someone come in to help with money. There's no way I should be broke the first week of the month.