Bipolar Check-in #85

I'm doing good today. The metformin is giving me a lot of gas and I don't really trust it. I tried Starbucks new Cortado but I took one sip and joked with my mom that it was "gonna blow my butthole out." But my stomach feels fine overall. I woke up at 5 something and I worked out and watched the news and cleaned up a bit. I don't have any plans today. My anxiety and moods are fine.

I'm not really hungry which is good. I had been ravenous before the metformin. And I've been working out a lot lately. I'm still balancing things out though so I'm doing things in a healthy way.

My therapist doesn't actually know about the metformin. And I'm not sure how to tell her. She doesn't like meds like that.

That's scary (for both you and your cat!) Glad all is good. Hope you feel better soon.

Sorry for those of you struggling. @Blue_Bird - I hope you start feeling better soon. @Mountaindewed - I think it's a good idea to tell your T about the metforim, even if she isn't the hugest fan of meds such as it, and besides, it or its results could have a mental impact, may as well let her know, otherwise, it seems you risk not getting as good of results from therapy as you might otherwise.

I am having a pretty good day. Like everyone else, it is going to get cold (at least for here) tonight and tomorrow morning, even have a hard freeze warning tonight until 9 AM tomorrow. I am so glad I did grocery pickup this morning and didn't wait to do it until tomorrow. I have been feeling quite well this weekend, and I don't know if it's the SAD lamp kicking in even more or what. Yesterday, I had such an awesome day, and nothing out of the ordinary really happened; I just felt happy, but I wasn't hypomanic; I did bake chocolate chip cookies but other than that, read, watched TV, nothing earth-shattering.

I did pilates this morning, had breakfast, picked up groceries & put them away, read with the SAD lamp. I had a pretty good day drawing, did 4 images (all in the creative corner forum), but here are my best 2 from today:

Yesterday I was sort of out of sorts. It’s early yet but today seems better. I’m getting the hang of the new remote and reading. Got so many books in the last few days that I have no need to go out,….except my meds need picking up. Brrrr it’s cold out there. At least the snow will miss us.

Today is my usual Sunday. Lay about, take a shower and fill the weekly med container. But a shower! Brr it’s cold in here, only 66f I don’t want to turn the heat on cause the coolness is great sleep. The last two nights I’ve gotten wonderful sleep. Fantastic dreams.

Blue bird sorry you’re having such a hard time. A fire, how scary. Hope Ms M has recovered by now.

Cookie 🍪 s all around.

Did not get the best sleep (again) last night. Didn't take the Risperdal either. It could be a total coincidence, but I did just completely lose my ability to fall asleep the day I decreased my methylphenidate dose (and got access to the risperdal PRN). Gonna try to read a bit today. Have to get in the shower too. I've been doing good with that, but it's almost 1pm and I'm still gross. I have a nice long Modest Mouse queue lined up (got Tundra/Desert going right now). Showering daily is soo much better and easier with music. I got this waterproof bluetooth speaker off amazon a ways back that's awesome. It was like $15 too, and has lights so sometimes I turn the bathroom lights on and just have those colors going for fun. One of my cat's is being extra grumpy about not having fifty breakfasts this morning so I guess he needs a little extra play time too.

I dont think metformin is a "med like that". If it were supposed to be, i would say its a big FAT failure and i have got the rear end to prove it!

Lol. Me too!

Me three metformin did nothing for me except screw up my digestive system.

same thing fir me

I'm feeling a bit better today. I wrote in my journal, took a shower, cleaned the apartment (including the toilet bowl. Yick!), and took out the garbage and recycling. I have a lot of energy today. I don't know why. And I'm hypersexual and it's really uncomfortable. Now I'm just resting and listening to music with my cat sleeping on my feet.

My sleep last night was shyt again. Of course. Even if I drastically decreased my caffeine intake.

I have an appointment tomorrow to get my eyebrow pierced at noon. I don't care if it hurts. It lasts like three seconds.

On Wednesday I have my physical with my GP that my therapist is taking me to. We get to talk about hormones! And I have to get a pap. Ugh. I hate those. But I'm putting my big girl panties on and getting it done.

I ended up admitting to my husband how awful I've been feeling last night. I felt really bad and ashamed because I didn't want to worry him. He said he'd be more stressed if I tanked and hadn't told him. He wants me to call my psychiatrist tomorrow morning.

Are you guys eating less and watching your food intake and also working out along with it too? I'm working out every day and calorie counting. Any weight loss drug or semi weight loss med Is only gonna meet you half way.

Did the last of the Christmas stuff. Changed the Christmas tablecloth for a regular one and threw away the Christmas centerpiece. It lasted almost two months. But the pine needles were dropping like murdered people on Midsomer.

Chatted with my oldest sister about the picnic in July we’re in charge of. It’s a cousins picnic and people take turns putting it on. We’ve got the park pavilion rented. I’ve saved a box to keep supplies in. I need to go to the $ store to buy the plastic tablecloth’s to tape over the picnic tables. The plates and napkins I think I’ll get at Walmart. My middle sister hasn’t said anything yet. Sent her a card for Christmas got nothing back, not even a text. My oldest sister said it will be up to the two of us. The most I saw of her was after mum died she was making to trip here weekly staking out things she wanted. Then after the estate was settled she’s gone incommunicado.

I feel miserable. I’m so congested I can’t get comfortable. I’ve just been playing games most of the day to distract myself from the fact that I feel so ****** right now

Metformin helped me lose weight while I was on it, I was also eating healthy and exercising. At the time when I was on it my doctor put me on it to help with weight gain associated with the antipsychotics. I eventually stopped the metformin cause it kept making me feel weird like my blood sugar was too low or something.

My sister said she’ll try to drop off a Covid test for me later

Metformin has stopped me from GAINING anymore weight, but hasn't really helped me lose any either. I was put on it because of weight gain from antipsychotics too.

Kinda down in the dumps about the drag queen who just died. I watched their orginal season on Drag Race UK and then the other season they were on on the American version a few years later.

Jeeze I haven't cride in over a year but I'm a bit teary eyed tbh. This hits hard.

That's kinda how it was with me when I was having issues with weight gain from zyprexa and took it. I went from gaining insanely to maintaining that higher weight (I didn't "work out" but had a job up to 60 hours a week physically demanding enough we had EMTs just for the company mostly to prevent/treat dehydration, and I feel that should count).

I’m okay. Slept 12 hours last night. Still needed 2 cups of coffee to wake up!

Went in to my gp to pay f my appointment yesterday. My card wasn’t working. Couldn’t pay again today either. Turns out it’s a problem with their machine. So I have to make ANOTHER trip there tomorrow morning if they get their machine fixed today. Kind of scary seeing the words declined and thinking I had no funds in my account! Nope it their issue, not my account.

I’ve got an order for my nail kit arriving today. Frustrating that I don’t know when because unfortunately I need to sign for it. Don’t feel like a trip to my post office. My current manicure is black but it’s a bit too dramatic for me. I’m going to do yellow and white with sunflowers. Something nice and cheerful. I could sit here on my bed and take my current manicure off but I don’t exactly want to spill acetone on the sheets.

I'm soo tired. Combined the last two days/nights I got less than 9 hours of sleep, read some of my book even though on the lower Ritalin dose it was insanely hard and I have no clue wtf I read, and loaded a bunch of wood in the basement. Took my shower too. Laid down for a bit with my cat--it was cute as soon as I laid down he woke up, meowed, started walking back and forth and bashing my face/asking for kisses. Did that for a bit then plopped back down and purred til he fell asleep. I played with the two of them for a bit too, but they got bored with the toy then decided just to fight each other.

It's so freaking dry; I'm gonna use a metric shytton of lotion and get into my jammies for the night

I don't know what I want. I think I want to buy almond butter for some reason. I have an Amazon gift card and a Kohls gift card and I've started a grocery order but my mind is mush

I just had a ton of diarrhea. Like I totally shyt my pants and then had explosive diarrhea. Idk if its the metformin. My doctor started me off on a really low dose.

I know its kinda funny though.

Negative for covid. Feels like a raging sinus infection idk though but it sucks and I feel terrible

Idk if I'm gonna be getting any sleep tonight

Thank you everyone miss mustachio is doing good now. I just feel bad because she keeps wanting to play and I have zero energy due to being so sick. As soon as I'm better I'm gonna be playing with her a lot, she's a really active cat, loves to play, drags her toys to me all the time

I'm so out of it right now I didn't even notice muddyboots, nammu and blueberry wrote posts mentioning me and wishes to get better and hoping that mustachio is okay until just now, I'm sorry

Oh yeah, my friend that went missing messaged me today, he's physically okay thank god. But he's still really unwell mentally

Have you ever tried sunflower seed butter? It's really good, I like it better than almond butter