New member...

Hi,everyone,I'm new to this (or any other)forum so just wanted to introduce myself.I've had many year's experience with severe mental illness but no experience with direct contact with those who actually "walk the walk" so I'm looking forward to being able to share some reality and maybe be of some comfort along the way.I am the survivor of bipolar disorder,borderline personality disorder,disassociative disorder and panic disorder.Some of these are,of course,related to another but, the big picture is that any one day holds many surprises.I know how vulnerable I can be even though I am well experienced in meds,hospitalization,and social stigma etc.I hope to be of some supprt to those who may be less experienced and to connect with those who can encourage me.Look forward to meeting you.Jill.

Dance like nobody's watching.

Hi, Jill

Welcome! I liked the way you referred to the illness as being a survivor.

I am glad you came here and hope to hear from you again. I have been Chronic Mental Illness for over 10years myself. Primary diagnosis just keeps changing on me. Now is that of Bipolar type 1. Also the others you mentioned with PTSD and Adult ADD.

The daily surprises sound familiar too.

Glad that you are here. Have a good day.

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~KRIS~


If you think you have totally gave up, you haven't, because you are here!

Welcome Jill. I have been dx with Bipolar 2, and Borderline Personality.

After some years of misery, I'm finding hopefully the right type of meds to keep things in line.

Look forward to getting to know you.

HI Jill.

BIG WARM WELCOME !!!!

This is a great place with many caring people.

I myself am still "testing the waters" at the forums, but I'm slowly coming out of my shell.

Take Care.

Hi,
I am Dori ,i am new just today my first post.
i want to tell you i am scared to be here.
a year ago i went to a phycharist cause i had gone through a very bad abusive relationship and he diagonised me as bipolar 2 and said i needed mediacation i tried the medication for a few weeks then i threw it in the trash and never returned .
my story, the short version, i am 51 i was taken away from my parents at the age of 12 for abuse on every level and then grew up in foster home. after one home, i left at 15 to then grow up on the streets , married and maried into an abussive relationship one after another.
i became a chrristian and learned past is past and i ignored my life for 20 years after that if had sympthoms i quote scripture till it left.
i worked hard not to be as my mom and she was manic depressive and died that way, mentaly crazy now i am sinlge mom with a daugther 18 and son 15 and work full time at a tough job , and i function most days but most days i fake it .my beliefs in God are strong and i know i am not crazy and i know he wont let me fall .
but the lights are out the kids alsleep and i think am i crazy would of no one knows i took the test on line my daughter wanted me to it said call a dr immmeditely and you are at the top , i dont want medication i been through rape by gunpoint , incest , beatings , homeless and abuse and abuse and abuse a broken heart so why cant it just be i am hurt still maybe al little broken hearted not crazy you might answer bi polar means you need help you are not crazy but to me bi polar is you are crazy i cant accept i am all i fought not to be and it didnt matter cause od dna
i dont want to come at this hurting anyone or attacking , i just cant give in yet i cant go to a dr would if i am and would if it is just another way to control me and take away me , does this make sence to any one ,, dori

HI DORI

First off, welcome. I think you'll find the people here friendly and willing to help.

You asked if what you said made sence. Yes it makes perfect sence and your not alone when you say things like not wanting to give up or giving away your control. You know a lot of us here have had some pretty bad things happen to us in our lives. So i just want to say a fue things about all you have said.

Maby your not bipolar. If so your lucky. Maby you can deal with this all on your own with no doctors help. That would be great as well. But let me just say that i've been right where you are. I thought i would never get better and there wasn't a chance any doctor could help me. Well that time has past and im the best ive ever been.

You tend to us the word "crazy " when you refer to BIPOLAR. You know there has been times in my life i thought i was going crazy and yes i am bipolar as well as recovering PTSD. Heres my take on crazy.

Some of the most so called normal people who i've met in my life seem a lot more crazy than ive ever seen my self as being. I see the word " CRAZY " as being a very broad statement. For me , yes im bipolar but im also one of the most stable well rounded people i know. Its all in what you make it. I could have let my fears and frustrations take over but if i had i would probably be in my grave right now. I beleave a persons behavior and who they truelly are as a person can not be deffined solely by there illness . There is the illness and there is the person. I have bipolar but it deffinately is not who i am.

No matter who you are in life, you are a comination of things. These things deffine how you treat your self and others. Saying bipolar illness makes a person crazy in my deffination is a cope out. If i had to deffine crazy , i would say crazy would be knowing you truelly need help and have a mental illness and not getting help. To me that would be crazy, and i'm not refering to you, i'm speeking in general. I can see you have some choices to make. I hope your able to find your self and make the right ones and start the healing prosses. Life is to short to fight help if its there for you. I'm sorry about your mom but trust me when i say bipolar is not the end all.

Good luck Jacqui :-))

Hi JILL

I think you found a great place to share your experiance and talk with others. WELCOME

Jacqui :-))