I am spiraling into yet another uncontrollable mania. Have not slep for a week except the day I took seroquel. Only problem with the seroquel is that I can't seem to wake up. So I have the choice of sleeping zombie or wild maniac who needs no sleep. I don't like these choices. It seems like none of my meds work anymore. My T says it is because I self medicate and I built up a tolerance to medication. I self medicate with the medication they perscribe me so how is this a problem. Maybe I am just confused. I am currently taking Lithium, Topomax, Trazadone, and Seroquel as needed. I see my P doc tomarrow, I just need to make it through today. I am really on edge and struggling though. I don't really know why I am writing this though. I don't really seem to connect with anyone here anymore anyhow. I feel like an out cast. The story of my sad little life. At least I know there is a loving GOD who cares for me. Why he lets me suffer again and again I don't know. Maybe I am suposed to be learning something from all of this. Hope you all have a wonderful day. I myself will be in hell until I see the pdoc tomarrow and probablity for days after that. Have fun.

[trippinmickey]

There a trick with seroquel .You have to take it at the same time every night .If I take it at 8;00 I go to bedat 10:30 and im fine the next day but any later and im sleep walking all day .It works for 24 hours and dose help to control mania.I only take it at night 200mg.and I have 300mg. on stand by if my mania gets to be to much.you can find a middle ground with seroquel if you try .I love my mania so I just try to bring it down abit plus I would never sleep if I didnt take seroquel. Good luck

[Conquistador]

Don't know what to say, but I do identify with you. That period is difficult where the thoughts are out of control but there's nothing you can do until your pdoc gets to work in the morning.

Good luck.

Thank you for support. Sorry if I sounded a little rash this morning. I just so desparetly want to feel some normalcy in my life again.

[bizi]

Have you ever tried to take some benadryl to take the edge off, many folks take it to help them sleep.
I am sorry that you are going thru this....
bizi

[ehrhar]

Benadryl is a good suggestion. I always make sure it's in my medicine cabinet, I too find that it can help with the edginess and provide some mild help with sleeping problems.

The benedryl helped. Pdoc changed meds to 200 mg of seroquel and told me to take it earlier. Upped topomax to 75mg a day, and left the lithium alone. Thanks for your support everyone.

[bizi]

I hope these changes provide you with some relief.
bizi

[through]

I dont know who you are, yet I just want you to know that I understand you completly and God is the only thing that I can fully trust.
After medications and fustrations God gave me legal options and Marijuana is the only thing that has worked from time to time. Only some types have worked, some Indikas at certain times. Its the same as trying different chimical drugs.
Dont ever give up! never! Another factor that has helped me has been making peace with flashbacks of abuse as a kid, and not be ashamed. Iam a successfull professional, and bipolar will not defeat who I'm, and I believe that you can over come your situation as I share with a group of strangers such deep emotions.
I believe that most of my depressions have been from childhood, and upper manias are to make up for lost time.
My prayers are to all that suffer, and to find confort in whish ever works for you.
PS: Iwas actually able to live for a nice long year and a half with prayer as medication. Hope I can find it again, and you as well.