[Rebound]

Yesterday I was in the depths of despair, sitting in the dark, curled up on the couch, music blaring. Today, it's like a light came on in my head... everything is clear, I remember how lousey I felt about everything yesterday but it's like it was happening to a different person.

I slept well, felt perfectly fine when I got up today, but I'm starting to feel like I am on a rocket to the moon... ZOOM!

Ah well, anyway, just wanted to share the ongoing saga of ups and downs and ups. Should be fun for a while lol...

[darkeyes]

Hi there,
These feelings are something you should take up with a pdoc, he or she can be of help to you, helping you too get a handle on this, I know I've been there myself.

Lots of luck now,

DE

[Rebound]

Thanks. I'm still waiting to see a therapist. But I'm beginning to wonder now what these past few weeks have really been about. I don't really feel anything right now at all. Not overly excited, not depressed. Just neutral. Don't get me wrong, I'm not complaining. But I almost feel like a fraud for the way I was behaving, to suddenly feel so "normal" practically over night. I said yesterday I felt like I was going up, but that seems to have fizzled quickly and now I am just not feeling much of anything.

Anyone here ever experienced anything like this or know anyone who has? It just seems so strange to just level right off so suddenly, I guess. Maybe I should just shut up and be grateful but I would appreciate hearing if anyone has any clue as to what is going on.

[darkeyes]

I have had that happen many times, I blame it more on my crazy hormones (I am pre-menopausal) which have made me feel so moody, wacky, depressed and agitated and then "Poof"! I go into neutral.
It can be that I am BP-II Mild too besides pre menopausal.
I think my mood stabilizers do help keep things from getting worse, but I guess the answer will come once menopause and things come to an end, who knows?
It is strange how our moods can mess us up, I sympathize with you, this can suck at times.
My advice is to talk to your pdoc about this, it may be a physical thing rather than mental or a combo of both, and there are quite a variety of meds that can target the problem, don't give up faith, okay?

((((((((((((( for you )))))))))))

Lots of luck,
DE

[sqrlb8]

Yer sher in it lately. That fraud feeling I know so well. That made it hard to dx too, as soon as I get to the doc's, why i'm fine, no problem, etc. That feeling like it "happened to someone else" too, I often say i feel like I woke up in someone else's life today. You almost need to have note cards to refer to to remember all these things for the doc. Do your best. There may be a med that will help knock down the worst aspects of that rapid deep cycle. So describing it will be important.

Try not to just scare yourself to pieces by over scrutinizing yourself either. On the one hand there is like this exhiliration to have finally solved a puzzle of some sort, and on the other there becomes this morbid fascination from which we are all but unable to pull away. I find myself still gawking at the train wreck in my head sometimes, even though I should be used to it by now, and even though it causes a mental traffic jam.

Metaphor belaboring aside, things are what they are, and the idea of a thing is never the same as the thing.

[Rebound]

So you don't think it's odd to have such a rapid cessation of symptoms? Or, do you think my current apathy is, in itself, a factor?

[sqrlb8]

sorry to have lost track of the thread there, reb, but to answer belatedly, nope. Change in a heartbeat, or in a week, or a month, maybe longer. Ain't it great?