[Michah]

Butting heads with family, kids, therapists, university, work, God, universe, personality, mood disorders, hallucinations, chaos, myself , love, happiness, humanity, medication and intellectual/spiritual freedom.

All my life I've been butting heads like some overzealous mountain goat to claim my spiritual and mental territory. I feel exhausted, hollow, lost and all my words have dried up. I just want to have a good cry and feel really sorry for myself.

(Candika, I read your last post but I just don't have the energy to respond today even though I SO hear you, its painful.)

[madisgram]

i hear what'cha saying, micah. it does take soooo much mental energy trying to untangle all that we face sometimes. i don't think crying will hurt. sometimes i feel it's a cleansing of pain. i used to allow myself say 15 minutes to just let the tears flow. usually that amount of time helped. i say time it cause you don't want to "go under" with the tears. also can you just simplify your thoughts, give your mind a rest, be gentle with yourself as you would a good friend? in time i believe you will find your peace. just hang on. if it worked for me, i believe it will for you too. we care. i'm glad you posted how you are feeling.

[Michah]

Originally Posted by madisgram

i hear what'cha saying, micah. it does take soooo much mental energy trying to untangle all that we face sometimes. i don't think crying will hurt. sometimes i feel it's a cleansing of pain. i used to allow myself say 15 minutes to just let the tears flow. usually that amount of time helped. i say time it cause you don't want to "go under" with the tears. also can you just simplify your thoughts, give your mind a rest, be gentle with yourself as you would a good friend? in time i believe you will find your peace. just hang on. if it worked for me, i believe it will for you too. we care. i'm glad you posted how you are feeling.

Thank you, thank you, thank you!

[Berries]

I feel for you Michah!!!!! Butting heads has got to be the WORST!!!! It makes you feel so alone and misunderstood.

[Lenny]

Originally Posted by Michah

Butting heads with family, kids, therapists, university, work, God, universe, personality, mood disorders, hallucinations, chaos, myself , love, happiness, humanity, medication and intellectual/spiritual freedom.

I know the feeling Michah...but it is better than heading butts....

Think of when you were little and you put your hand out the window while Mom or Dad drove along....

When you put your hand flat against the wind your whole arm swung back,,and you would fight to get it back again...It was kind of fun....but hard work....

But when you put your hand flat with the wind...it would fly...

That was more fun...

Find the wind in things Michah...and ride it....

With Care,

Lenny

[Michah]

Originally Posted by Lenny

I know the feeling Michah...but it is better than heading butts....

Think of when you were little and you put your hand out the window while Mom or Dad drove along....

When you put your hand flat against the wind your whole arm swung back,,and you would fight to get it back again...It was kind of fun....but hard work....

But when you put your hand flat with the wind...it would fly...

That was more fun...

Find the wind in things Michah...and ride it....

With Care,

Lenny

Oh my goodness........well that just blew my mind. You sound just like my old kung fu master. Thank you for the absolute, divine simplicity in your words. I am now crying with happiness and acceptance. Better than crying because you want to hide under a rock. Thank you for helping me cry in a different way. That a stranger should know me so well........I am speechless.

[Lenny]

Originally Posted by Michah

Thank you for helping me cry in a different way. That a stranger should know me so well........I am speechless.

I'm glad you are happy Michah...

Nothing wrong with quiet....

Lenny