[wendy72]

Hi I am first timer here with writing and admitting I have a problem with bipoloar. I need help and am on several meds that sedate me. I have permission to call my dr whenever but I feel so guilty and don't want to bother him. I have been on psych ward one time already for one week 2 weeks ago for 6 days and i feel like i may need to go back. I dont know if I am getting better or not. I cry and sleep and tired and cry. I wish I could just be normal and get rid of the feelings of being stigmatized and that I have a problem. I am told there is help but I am so ashamed to take it to go to emergency...thanks Wendy

[Michah]

Hi there!!

Yes, you are in the initial, painful stages of "bipolar realisation"(I call it). It is like someone is punching you in the head constantly, well, thats how it felt for me........Everyone here has had a similar bipolar initiation.......I have not known anyone that welcomed it with open arms.......

Babe, you are afraid........and that is completely normal........whatever you might think intellectually of your illness, your safety is your first priority.......so go to the hospital if you need to.......do not delay!

I suffered intense grief after my dx for about 6 months as I had already battled for 15 years with 2 other mental illnesses. I was dx bipolar 2007

I had to give up my degree and my job, not to mention being hospitalised for the 12th time in the last 15 years. The toll on my family was enormous, especially my son.

As with everything, especially biploar, it is all cyclic. I know you are in a terrible place but the revolution shall change again, into something new.

Have faith........and be SAFE!!

Let us know you are okay...........

[gimmeice]

Hello Wendy, it's nice to meet you, welcome to pc. There is help out there hun please reach out if you need it. Here are some hugs

While you explore the site, if you have any questions feel free to private message any community liaison or moderator, here is a link to a list of forum leaders.
http://forums.psychcentral.com/showgroups.php

[Lucindaherself]

Hi Wendy!

I just joined up here a day or two ago as well and also have been trying to 100 percent believe that I have bipolar for about the last year now. I always felt as if I had plain old bouts of depression. I am having one right now with all the sleeping and crying, and I have done the hospital, I'm doing ECT, and I'm going to therapy tomorrow, again, and I keep thinking someday, there's going to be something that really works on this whole business besides just being fairly successful at avoiding meds that zombify me.

Yes, please tell us that you are okay if you are--I hope!--and if it doesn't get any better, please don't be afraid to be in touch and be honest about that. I know a lot of times I and a lot of other people feel like all the people who ask if we are okay just want that cheery answer, especially if somebody is down for a while, and giving that cheery answer when you still feel bad is just really depressing and makes you feel lonely.

No matter how long it goes on (though I hope it doesn't), there have to be people out there who are not going to stop listening. There's me at least, and I'm sure I can't be the only one.

So how are you feeling now?

Lucinda

[kittenkirk]

I don't want to admit I have bipolar too but I have accept that I do and try to get help.

What I'm searching for is answers to treating my illness without meds. Holistic medicine, I heard is a good way to go but I don't know how to go about it. I don't eat right and that's possible part of my problem.

I was on 5 different meds to level me off. I was a zombie and I gained 65lbs, so I took myself off, cold turkey, against dr advice and I drank.
I drank for a week or two and then I became better when I stopped drinking. Problem that was April now I drank again Aug. and now again Feb 27. So 3 times this year after not drinking for 8 years.

I don't want to be sick. I want to be better but I have to keep looking for answers. Now I'm going to seek help in Holistic medicine. Anyone? If you can email or im me please do. I am seriously in need of help. I'm not in work again...and I'm feeling a downward cycle again.

kathy

[froggie2]

Welcome Wendy,
glad you found this sight. it really is a lifesaver. You will find out that we are all different. Some symptoms the same and some not. If your Doctor said to call I would. Doctors don't tell just anyone to call anytime. So obviously he is trying to do his job and your job is to keep him informed so he can. Whats that book, The Road Less Travelled,? Well we are on it. I wish I could find that poster that had all the famous people on it who had or have bipolar. Its amazing. Everyone seems to be extremely smart, artistic, and talented so your in a good crowd. Hang in There.