confused

hi, everyone..i know that things havent been great with me for a while and im tired of talking to everyone around me and they not understanding me. im up and down all the time..thoughts racing through my mind. Things were great a few years ago, now i cant do anything...i cant keep a job and most days i dont feel like going anywhere. the beginning of the year i decided to start seeing a doc and just yesterday was prescribed some meds. i fell like im alone and its been nice reading the other postings and realising im not actually alone...sometimes i feel like im losing my mind...i think i do dumb stuff all the time and maybe for a while i was trying to figure out what was wrong with me...i feel like im pretending...i feel like there are different sides to me and i dont know which one is me...im tired of thinking and hearing myself speak i dont like anything thats coming out and im really scared. if anyone has suggestions or advice i would wecome anything.

Hi, ive been looking around and it looks like people can have more than one disorder. Is that common? I see myself in some of the other disorders....im still scared to open up totally with my doc...should i be the one to say i think i may also have other problems or do you think i'm creating problems in my own mind? So far i've only been dx with depression and instead of seeing doc every 2 weeks it will be every week. Its hard when you know that something is wrong but no one else seems to know again I know ive said this before but I am very scared...I dont like my life and its not because I'm lazy...if things were going well before why do I feel so messed up now? Do I sound like anyone you know or am I just a babbling fool?

The things you describe all sound like me too. You are right to want to persue the "something's going on in my mind" investigation. Sounds like you've got some initial infrastructure work done already, you at least have one dx etc. Get with a doc who can determine how likely bipolar really might be your condition, or another. In my experience and so many others here, the symptoms don't seem to have much respect for borders between differing dx's. But the right doc knows ways to narrow it down somewhat by asking you questions. So, you really want to lay it all out. Think, "full capitulation" in order to get the most informative responce from your doc.

The time during dx can be so upsetting. It really does have that fork in the road feel to it. The thing is, you can't really choose the i'm not mentally ill fork if you are. Then it's more like a sudden curve in a road you thought went straight to the horizon. A disturbing thing, but you adjust. I'm not trivializing just trying to make a picture in answer to how scared you are now. I've sure been there. But nothing I was ever afraid of was ever as bad as I was afraid.

good luck and welcome

I have more than 1 dx I'm Bi-polar, depression, and DID
Angie

Thanks for your responses. It may be something it may be nothing. My friends were saying I'm just depressed. Two years ago I decided to see a therapist and was prescribed meds, I didnt take the meds a shortly after I stopped seeing her, this is the 3rd time I'm starting to see her again. I'm planning on sticking with it this time.
Thanks.