[peaches102984]

I posted on another forum...but I don't think they liked me much there. They never really gave me advice.
I have been in a mixed state for more than 2 weeks not. Emotions are running like a roller coaster. I have Bipolar 1 and have just recently moved to Colorado. Which means I haven't seen a doc yet. I have seen a therapist and they are working on getting me a sooner appt. but no luck. My appt is July 7th. I am not really suicidal. I am just up and down. Happy to very depressed and I can't tell my husband why. He keeps asking "whats wrong?" I have no answer so I shrug my shoulders. I have been sitting here for about 3 hours looking up going to the hospital voluntarily but most says if your suicidal. The therapist I see is from a behavioral health and substance abuse place. We have discussed there inpatient facility but I have never been hospitalized. I just don't know what to do at this point. All I do is cry or I am mad. At this present time is very depressed so I am cryin. I just needed some advice is all.
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[amaviena]

I've found the many times they said I should have gone to the hospital, it really would have been more beneficial for me to go there than stay at home. You have to remember that in these times your judgement might be skewed.
July 7th is so soon. You can do it.

[chailatte16]

It sounds like you are having a really wretched time. I have Bipolar 1 with rapid cycling. I experience mixed states sometimes, so I know how awful it can feel especially if it goes on for 2 weeks like what is happening to you now. It sucks that you have to wait until July 7th to talk to a doctor. I am glad that you have seen a therapist.

In response to your question about hospitalization, I would ask what you think being in the hospital would do for you. Hospitals can be very helpful for those who need a safe place. I have had several hospitalizations that helped protect me from seriously injuring myself. My experience with hospitalization for severe mood issues has been mixed. Sometimes the structure of the day with all the various groups and the tweaking of the meds is beneficial. However, I have had some hospitalizations where I felt that I might have improved at home if I had given it time. You might want to think about trying to hold on until your doctor's appointment as long as you don't become suicidal. Hospitals are very restrictive places that take away many of the pleasures of life so you might want to consider waiting to see the doctor if you think that you are more comfortable dealing with your mixed state at home than you might be in a hospital that could make you more miserable.

K

[Berries]

(((((peaches)))))

I've been where you are now. It sucks big time. And i have been hospitalized many times. But I, personally, would never go into the hospital unless i was a danger to myself.

[thinker22]

Yeah, I agree with the others. I'd avoid the hospital unless you do get suicidal or feel impulsive enough to do something dangerous to yourself or others even if you don't intend to. You'll worry about bills, if people will find out, how long they will keep you, etc. if it's not too serious and wish you were at home in your own bed. If it is serious and you have ideation of self harm, definitely go to the hospital and screw the fears. There are state programs to help you with the costs if you're unable to pay or don't have very good insurance. I'd research all your options before you have to worry about being at that place.