[granite1]

im feeling a million differnt things at once and i am sooo out of it yet i am soo anoyed.i want to scream because people are forcing me to interact with them.I DONT WANT TO.i want to just sit here and expend no energy on anything.then my husband will come and just about sit in my lap saying something like hi honey hi honey.you so cute et... and i want to scream at him just leave me the **** alone.dont know if im real depressed or what .i know i have dissapeared way into my head and i love that in my own world and i hate when someone intrudes.but something is wrong really reeally wrong and i cant figure it out.maby i dont want to i dont know.i dont even know what i want from writing this.im hating my husbands voice.why did he have to stay home today.it is my time to just dissapear and he isnt letting me i need to and im going to go nutz if i have to stay focused and interact with poeple all day .im shure he knows that im just dissapearing into my head and he is trying to keep me here.i hate it why do i need to be antware or interact with anyone it isnt his busness.if im in my head im ok i can hold things together.sorry i so hate life today

[shezbut]

granite1

How about going for a long walk or to the gym alone? Getting out of the house and becoming active could give you space to think about what's bothering you and work off some stress.

You could gently tell your dh that you need a little bit of space, and encourage him to see a buddy for a couple of hours. Sitting down with a notebook and just letting yourself write may shed a little light on how you're feeling and why.

Certainly worth a gentle shot ~ rather than over-reacting to an annoyance and then having negative emotions escalate.

Best wishes!

[sewsweetie28]

I agree with Shez, you need to get out and do something productive and that is just for you to feel good! Going inside of your head all day is just giving into your negative mood and thoughts. It's ok to have these feelings and really feel them and acknowledge them for what they are, but then you need to move on and not, shut at least your husband out for the whole day. It is understandable to not to want to be social with a bunch of people when you are feeling like this! I hope you can do something positive for yourself today and enjoy the rest of your day! Hugs!

[granite1]

i feel like just going deep into the woods and just staying thare for a long time.nothing bothering me it may not keep me from dissapearing into my head but it would stop people from bugging me.almost went the other day but it was dark and that i dont think would be a good idea but it sure did sound inviting