[InternalDisruption]

I don't know how I am feeling anymore.

I don't feel stressed, but I know I am because my period is now on day 50 of its cycle, which is too long.

Sorry I haven't posted here yet, I haven't been bothered to do anything because my mood has just hit an all time low.

I don't feel like I'm worth anything, I don't feel loved or wanted by people, but I can't die, as much as I feel that I can't live.

I'm having paranoid thoughts about people, assuming strangers are always talking about me, or judging me.

I'm sorry, I just... I need some help.

I certainly would see an OBGYN for the 'period' thing.Hormones are... at instances... a huge contributing factor to mood.I have been hospitalized for self injury...(always turns out to be p.m.s)....I also get paranoid,for me,this is due to the fact that I have experienced situations of abuse,betrayl,ect.....and I never saw these situations coming.So obviously,since I was surprised by these things...I did not trust my perceptions and had to be 'prepared' and on edge about all the 'possible' things that 'could' occur.So as you can see ....our experiences can shape our interpretation of things around us.I feel you could benefit from a supportive T who could explore these things with you.You aren't different....you just have things to explore.(((safe hugs)))~WOolf

[InternalDisruption]

Thanks for replying.

I suffered abuse and betrayal too, both of which continued for quite a long time and have only just recently ended (in the last 5 years).

Finally came on a little today, so I'm pleased about that.

I feel that too, the last therapist I had was soo naff, even 6 months of having therapy with her didn't help, maybe slightly because I talked about the problems confronting me but I didn't learn how to deal with them. Just got told to move on.

[tryingtobeme]

Originally Posted by InternalDisruption

the last therapist I had was soo naff, even 6 months of having therapy with her didn't help, maybe slightly because I talked about the problems confronting me but I didn't learn how to deal with them. Just got told to move on.

Please do seek out another T. This last one doesn't sound like a good T at all. We just don't "move on " from our past life. It takes work and if any T tell yous to move on or expects you too, they are not worth your time. There are good T's out there. I wish you luck on finding one that can help you.