You know you're borderline when...

LOL

Or the neighbors body
Or her mothers body
or...

OMG...I actually have stuff awaiting my IMMEDIATE attention RIGHT now and what am I do??? Writing here, watching t.v....and listening to my kids this and that....LOL....TOO Funny....Wait paranoid thought "I have a feeling somebody's watching me" there's a song in there somewhere...Okay okay just kidding

Shhhhhhhh nobody else is supposed to know our secrets...be wery, wery, quite as elmer fudd would say

OMG I have a house full of unfinished projects it drives my wife up a wall. It took me two years to remodel my kitchen (part of that was because of katrina) a year to finish my living room. I have a beautiful kitchen and living room now but I thought my wife was going to kill me.

ARG,

My husband is used to me getting it all done in one sweep cuz I do have that manic side of me I guess that's the bi-polar side that runs in me too? GEEZ what else??? Name that MI?? However that has not really been the case since we lost our HOME Yeah but I am almost done with taking off the old wallpaper in this 1937 home we rent. I couldn't stand it it has to go. I have painted already 5 of the rooms in this 3 story house So much to do and now I am ready to re-due the rooms I have already done, and the girls are already sick of there rooms....OMG they take after me!!! SIGH.....

Sorry to hear about your house. That's sad. Having to start over is good and bad. You seem to be staying positive about it and making the best of it and making into a home you enjoy.

We have been very fortunate...Well like you said we have made the best of the crappy landlords we have run into, and well yeah just have kept trucking. We have moved 3 times in less the 3 years but kept it were our kids could stay in the same school...Would not traumatize them again after we left there ROOTS...

Yeah our first landlord was not paying the mortgage on the house with the which we were paying our rent, the only way we found out was the process server came and served us the papers thinking we were the home owners! That was a blessing in disguise at least we knew to get out...We never received our deposit back even though we paid our rent and cleaned the house did everything for these people...UGH.... Then the next home the land lord was after our year was coming up he was trying to keep us in it while he was going to sell it??? ARG...We were the kind that took care of the property it was beautiful and everything just so he wouldn't have to pay more blah, blah...All we asked is that he wouldn't be shady....Well yepp you guessed it.... Our landlord now well it's will be a year, and he's already reduced our rent for being good tenants and allows me to do to the home as I please, making my own...He trust our judgment If he only knew lol....We have never had anyone help us move either so it's been me my kids and hubby that have done it all...Mostly my son and I did most of it in a few day's while hubby worked...Yeah it's been tough but those tough times made our family unit stronger

What the heck? This is borderline? Seriously......And it's funny?I know you guys are gunna get mad at me again...but ...I just cant see the humor...I am seriously going to my doc for re evaluation.This dx was made during a time when I had od'd,been on a respirator and couldn't recognise my kids due to the brain damage.I have no idea how they could dx me in that condition and I dont understand where any of it is funny....I really am feeling ashamed with the threads you guys are posting and thinking its funny to do bad things.Because it affects me ...I share the label. I guess at this point I am getting plain irritated.Hate mail? Dead bodies?Did you actually go damage property and break your bf's windows baltazaar?How about getting serious about getting stable and well?>.<

Wolfsong...if we did do those things, how do you think we would feel about it?

One kind of humor is exaggerration, over-the-top. We use it because it eases the pain of the times when we horrify even ourselves.

btw, sharing the label isn't what makes it affect you.....

A note of support: Therapy for borderlines is long and hard--just ask a therapist!

I'm proud of us for begining to create a forum for ourselves. I like it that we talk, that we share war stories---and it is a war, and it is on a part of ourselves that has a million resources that catch even us by surprise; I like it that we disclose so that we can have faith that we are not alone; I like it that we can enjoy each other and our brand of humor that comes from our brand of pain and struggle; I like it that we are supportive whenever someone needs it (like in threads that wax and wane serious). We adapt, and we keep trying. Keep the faith.

I have BPD and I'm also a therapist. One of the best coping skills is having the ability to laugh at oneself.

Some of the behaviors caused by the lack of emotional regulation ARE funny. It's like always being 14 in some ways.

I have no idea if you are BPD or not since you're not my patient. However, I am. I can laugh at myself probably because I'm in the process of healing and can recognize Borderline behavior.

I never did break anyone's windows (that was poetic license.) However, I've made a lot of men CRAZY due to my disorder.

Wolfsong I get that you still have a ways to go in your healing and I do hope the comes you can look back and laugh. I still have my moments I drive my wife up a wall but I am not as bad as I once was. I have smashed things out of anger and my wife has hidden things so I would not hurt my self. It is good for me and I image others to be able to LOL back and laugh at how silly I can and still can be some times. I hope maybe next time I start to feel this way I will think of all of you and just laugh instead of throwing the phone at the wall. Wolfsong I truely hope you find peace and can one day look back and giggle at yourself.

Kalisha, I am so glad housing is settling down for you, and sorry it has been so hard. One of the things I'm noticing about recovery is that those of us lucky enough to have families ARE lucky....It astonishes me that my husband stayed through thick and thin. My therapist calls it a story of hope. When he said that, I laughed back at him, "But I'm not hopeful at all!" And he said, "No....I mean your husband's story."

Wow.

So, yep, you know you're borderline when every comment anyone makes about your family is REALLY a comment about you! ....................So, interestingly enough, I started looking for ways we are hopeful about my family....uh, our family........Just that one little comment.............over a year ago...........and I've thought about it all this time.......Thank god for therapy--finding someone I trust, someone who knows me and isn't horrified (who knows how bad I am....beats me...), and who also shares my sense of humor and who laughed and laughed when I read some of these to him.

He also said he's learned more from me about therapy than he's ever learned from any patient. At first, I laughed, but he wasn't laughing. I think he likes me. But, uh, that's what I think right now....ask me again in a couple of hours

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Thanks...Yeah My T is totally like that tooo...She helps me to understand me my behavior that I don't understand....Puts words to it??? We put laughter to it? It has been a good day yesterday to see you all laughing a bit...It seems so far and few between with the silliness of what we go thru...Cuz it's so serious and it's such an upward battle.....

My T say's that its a learning experience with me too lol...I am very high emotion lol among other thing..he he...We will see what unfolds today...She is awesome for the most part...I usually adore her when I don't not like her

Thanks for not being mean in response.I am waaay too serious.I am waay too sensitive.I cry if I step on a bug.lol.I'm sorry.I just am sensitive.I will try to see the humor.I have a good sense of humor and can be silly but I just am way too serious sometimes.I was desperate to erase this last night.I was crying and telling my son what I read here...he said MOM...they are not trying to be mean they are trying to be funny,cause life sucks sometimes.he said I should try to laugh about my life and mistakes,and that I am too serious alot of the time.He told me I have a great sense of humor too but that I carry the weight of the worlds guilt on my shoulders.That if I keep crying about everything I am going to end up back in hospital.I do lose my temper but I guess even then I will always be open to rectifying with anyone over anything.I am sorry .He wouldnt let me erase it cause he said tho I am way to serious that ,I should say how I feel and have faith fate would smooth things out.He is 19.This is why I say this kid is my best friend on the planet.(((((Ryan)))))<---My son,my mentor ,my counselor and ...since age 3 months ..."my kitten" He isnt ashamed I call him Kitten lol...He'd beat anyones arse if they even smirked about being called that lol...cause I'm his "mommy ...and always will be "...Thats what he says lol....Will even purr for me in front of his hard arse friends lol and dare em to speak.Anyways...I guess I need to seriously "lighten up" he said.WO.olfsongSoooo heres a hug and me hoping to not be so serious...

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Please know all of our emotions opinions feeling belong here and should be heard...I think our rants, our burst feelings getting hurt should be noted, and I am so glad you didn't take down your post, and that I didn't take down mine cuz I was going to too....I NEVER want to HURT anyone really...My words can come off so strong, but in person I promise I would help anyone and I do suck it up and try as you say "to carry the world on my shoulders", however with what I said in terms with my husband and stuff it's true...I am NOT proud not at all, but thru therapy I am working so hard and I am so very fortunate that he's still here! My family is why I work so hard... Your pain is heartbreaking and I wanted to come back and say so, but I didn't' want to trigger any further upset....Let's make this a safe place for us all whatever scale of BPD we have to choose to express ourselves and say how we feel without judging each-other...We have enough of that outside in the world of "normalcy of people"
Biggest hugs if safe
Kalisha

That's great that you have support from your family. That makes such a big difference having someone who will give it too straight and call it the way they see it but still not be judgemental. My wife is finally started to come around and leaves me be when I am having a bad day. Before she would just make things worse, but it wasn't her fault she didn't know what the problem was or how to handle it. and please don't refrain from posting your feelings. Half the point of this site is having someplace we can let out our feelings without being judged by the "straights". We will just listen and offer support in our way. unless we're having a bad day too and then I guess there could be some intersting posts we can hopefully laugh at latter. I wish you well on your journey of healing.

LOL I feel all warm inside naow...God I'm an odd array of facets lol...Ok

Aren't we all. Can never tell from one minute to the next.

Your fiance mentioned talking to a girl at work about being from Michigan (just like I am), so you begin to compare yourself to this person you have images in your mind of what she looks like. You start to get jealous and angry and wanting to drive to his work to "have lunch with him" when all you want to do is see this woman who he has been talking to. Thinking..she better NOT look better than me. So you drive by his work, see no one, and look her up on facebook instead!

You know your BPD when your wife hides your keys so you decide to walk out to the highway and stand infront of an 18 wheeler. Those things sure can getter over quick.

You know your bpd when all you want is attention from your husband...He comes in the door and his happy and singing but he dose not hug you but he's smiling...So nope can't have that!! Although all day you have been thinking about a romantic evening with him and have everything set up!!! But because he shows happiness first SQUASH that...There must be someone else that made him happy...Forget that he can't actually be happy on his own, or have a good day at work!!! there's gotta be someone else just has to be...your searching his eyes!!!...grrr..

lolololol

Sometimes, I'm also too serious and too sensitive. Say the wrong thing to me at the wrong time and all the rage comes crashing everywhere.

My head can make up the most intricate stories off simple facial gestures:

A frown - This person must think there is something wrong with me.
No eye contact - This person must think I'm boring.

You get the idea. So don't worry about being sensitive or serious...you've come to the right place