[Broken_Wings87]

My Pdoc has currently diagnosed me with BPD (and then refused to treat me anymore) but when I look at the symptoms and difficulties experienced by people with BPD I can't relate and don't see myself experiencing most of them. I'm so confused and feel that the specalists are just diagonsing me with anything just so they are able to put names to my issues (I have more diagonsis than just the BPD). I don't know what I hope to achive by posting this.....sorry for the ranting.

[cboxpalace]

Hi Broken,

With what you write I think it's hard for anyone to give you a real answer without knowing more. Did you talk to your pdoc about not being able to relate to bpd traits, and ask him to clarify his diagnosis? I'd start there. My only other suggestion would be to get a 2nd opinion.

-cbox

I agree with cboxpalace - ask your doc why exactly he thinks you have bpd and whether theres a possibility your symptoms could correspond with another diagnosis. Definately get a second opinion if your not convinced by your doctors reasoning. Good luck.

[kristi4816]

Originally Posted by Broken_Wings87

when I look at the symptoms and difficulties experienced by people with BPD I can't relate and don't see myself experiencing most of them. I'm so confused....

I agree with both Cbox & bb. Definitely a second opionion, but since I love to talk about me, I'll share even though mine's a bit different....

Anyway, I had the opposite experience in that my research on BP lead me to BPD & I felt like I related more to BPD. (I probably have both.) Anyway, my T, who didn't buy it at first, is starting to see what I am really like, as I have "quiet, high-functioning" BPD traits that have been well hidden. Oh, I dispaly confusing behavior to those who know me well, but I don't have the classic outward rage, suicidal tendencies. I have also been afraid to open up. & have been in major denial. For example, I look, act & talk like I have it together, but the slightest perception of rejection sends me places in my head that are quite troubling. I really appreciated when I read some of the stuff on the "you know you are BPD when you...." board.

Now, I do not wish this on anyone (BPD), wish we were all healthy with wonderful childhoods etc., but since this is not the case, I am glad I found a place to not feel so alone.

Not sure if this helps, but I guess I feel like it relates in that I too am concerned with getting the correct diagnosis, or not being given the wrong one.

[Broken_Wings87]

Sorry I ‘m not used to sharing a lot of information, I am more than happy to share more but I don’t know what else to say. Also am not sure what exactly I was trying to achieve by posting this (as I said in the post). I can't ask my doc why he diagnosed me with BPD as he is now refusing to see me. So I'm stuck in the unknown....Sorry for wasting your time.

[growlycat]

I don't know your age, but therapists are not supposed to diagnose for BPD until 18 or later (BPD reads like a description of your normal teenager)

Also, when I was young I was slapped w/the BPD label while in the hospital. My T said that BPD is the label you are given when your treatment team does not like you. He meant that it is a vague and practically bogus catch-all diagnosis.

[Rosie23]

What's with not wanting to treat you anymore??? BPD certainly merits treatment.

That part sounded more odd than anything else.

I know it is hard, but if he/she doesn't want to treat you, then I would find another T. And in the mean time I would keep careful track of your moods, thoughts and behavior. And be completely honest.

And then lay it all on the new T.

[RaggedyAnn67]

As for the 'not treating you any more', it seems essential to find someone else. From what I have personally experienced with mental healthcare, there are providers who do not want to treat us because it can be a long time of treatment (for some) and our heightened emotional states can be very challenging for them. And, we can be very manipulative. I don't mean this (manipulative) as though we are 'bad'. I mean that we put on that impression that we are 'normal'. We hide what is really going on in the inside. Then, we tend to divert attention (manipulate) to something else to avoid getting the truth out. I don't want people to know about the 'real me' with the overwhelming feelings of being different, not fitting in, being seriously depressed, getting angry quickly, becoming hysterical and crying quickly, desperately wanting them to like me and praise me. [Just a few of the deep mind desires I have.]
As for the being diagnosed with BPD, I would like to suggest avoiding fear of labels. Keep an open mind and do some research. BPDers do not all have the same exact behaviors/thoughts. And, recognizing the symptoms in ourselves can take time until we can identify them in us. If you are BPD, and you know that now, constructive steps can be taken towards healing. But, we can not fix what we don't know. During your adventure down the understanding your thoughts/feelings/emotions path of 'mental health', seek the 'truth'. Because it is the truth that will allow us to move on. We can make a plan for healing if we can find those underlying issues. When there are labels, there are often processes that can be followed that have been proven to help people within that 'category'. I don't think it is such a bad thing to have a label. Now that I know more about myself, I can start the process to move on and heal.
Keep an eye out for the truth!

[Broken_Wings87]

Thank you all for responding. I never said I don't want treatment. I am going to a new t on Wednesday

[kristi4816]

Originally Posted by Broken_Wings87

Thank you all for responding. I never said I don't want treatment. I am going to a new t on Wednesday

Good! I think it was more along the lines of encouragement to not let the confusion hold you up or delay you too long, rather than thinking you did not want treatment. It did not cross my mind from your post that you were not looking for treatment. I am glad you are seeing someone Wed.