[frowningdown]

I am so irritable and touchy that I do not even want to be with myself! I wish I could be anywhere but with me right now. Of course, there is no escape from me.
"Wherever you go,there you are."

So I can isolate myself from others, to avoid hurting them. But I can not leave to avoid hurting me. I HATE this.

I wish I had some control over how I feel. It seems all I can do is get out my DBT tools and use the distress tolerance stuff and ride it out.

This too will pass.

The one thing you can count on with emotions is that they will change. They are like waves, when one comes in, it is only a matter of time before it goes out again and another one comes back in. I just have to wait until it goes back out... and hope I do not have to do anything else in the mean time. No phone calls, no one at the door, no other things that demand me to be anything other than what I am right now: Angry and liable to snap at the slightest provocation.

I don't want to be like this. What can I do?

[ChaoticSymphony]

Meditate, turn on the tv and watch a cheezy sitcom that is simple. Distract yourself and before you know it the feeling is gone. You said it right, this too will pass. ((HUGS))

[rainbowoflabels]

I get this way and work on what I learned in treatment. Recently with the new dx of bpd it has confused things more but allowing myself to be nice to self helps.

[Fluke]

I have been diagnosed with Bipolar I for three years and they are just looking at the possibility they could be wrong. I have such intense anger I could throw a cup against the wall. I have screamed obsenties at my kids (even though they are in their 20's its not acceptable. I hate myself when I get like that to.

I have found a distracton like talking on the phone to a girlfriend who may not be one of your best friends so you have to keep in tack has helped. me.

Good Luck

Hi frowningdown,

I know how you feel, im self isolating at the moment - i just can't be around anybody right now without laying into them but i understand what you mean by not being able to escape yourself. Im not advocating it in any way what so ever but the only thing that has ever bought me closest to the slightest bit of relief is self harm. Ive tried pretty much everything else and nothing works as well. I hope this isn't how it is for you but you say you've had DBT so im hoping that improves how you feel however gradually. Ive nothing else to say really other than

[RaggedyAnn67]

Right now in my life, and not just at this moment, I am positively enjoying my quiet time alone. Too many distractions in one day causes me to panic (and have panic attacks), become grumpy/angry, and completely exhausted.

So, when too many phone calls are coming, I turn off the ringer and let the answering machine get it. If people are knocking on my door, I hang a do not disturb sign up. If the neighborhood is too loud, I put in my earplugs. I take steps to limit those things that are too much for me at the moment.

As for the being alone, I am using this time constructively to do things that I always wanted to do but never had the opportunity to do because of being too busy with other things. I have found projects that I do that have a result to be more awarding. Bake...I have yummy food to enjoy. Crochet...I have things for myself and to give as gifts to others (which is self-satisfying for me). I do things like Sudoku puzzles to take my mind off of other things to (but this one is also stimulating/challenging your mind).

I am sort of finding myself during this time. I do hope that you look into constructive hobbies for yourself as well. They help to relax my poor busy mind.