[Liinu]

So today I have gone from laughing and being all hyper to tears in my eyes in a matter of minutes. And that's pretty much the way it works for me. How do you all deal with these intense moodswings? It's really tiring and I just feel really stupid, because my moods don't really make much sense. It's like puberty all over again. -.-

[Girl_Interrupted]

I don't deal with them, I just put up with them.

[Crossing The Border]

I understand what you mean - it's very hard to control.

[Liinu]

I always just feel so stupid afterwards. Like.. I have cried over the fact that we didn't have eggs and I wanted scrambled eggs. Just the tiniest things make me explode with a variety of emotions. And don't even get me started on PMS + BPD.

[Liinu]

Oh and one more thing.. Are any of you pwBPDs Gemini's? I mean.. I'm a Gemini. And as one, I already have moodswings. Do those just become worse for you with BPD?

[Girl_Interrupted]

Ummm, I'm not sure what someone's star sign has to do with it? Don't believe in all that crock

[Liinu]

Well, I've seen how star signs actually have an influence on someone's personality. Like Taurus is stubborn. Gemini has moodswings. Idk.. I believe in what I've seen or experienced or what has been scientifically proven. So I was just wondering if with BPD your own personality just kind of.. Gets worse. I mean, if you already have some traits that are similar with BPDs symptoms.

[kitten2012]

Originally Posted by Liinu

Well, I've seen how star signs actually have an influence on someone's personality. Like Taurus is stubborn. Gemini has moodswings. Idk.. I believe in what I've seen or experienced or what has been scientifically proven. So I was just wondering if with BPD your own personality just kind of.. Gets worse. I mean, if you already have some traits that are similar with BPDs symptoms.

As a fellow Gemini with award winning mood-swings, I must tell you that I definitely both do, and do not believe in the correlation.

Also that I'm a smart a&%. And also that I'm not. WTH, where your troubles can make you laugh at yourself, go nuts.

Now, here's a short play of a 5 minute span of the BPD Gemini.
Act 1:
Act 2:
Act 3:
Act 4:
Act 5:
End scene

[Liinu]

Originally Posted by kitten2012

As a fellow Gemini with award winning mood-swings, I must tell you that I definitely both do, and do not believe in the correlation.

Also that I'm a smart a&%. And also that I'm not. WTH, where your troubles can make you laugh at yourself, go nuts.

Now, here's a short play of a 5 minute span of the BPD Gemini.
Act 1:
Act 2:
Act 3:
Act 4:
Act 5:
End scene

That's definitely me. But well yeah.. I can laugh at myself in a good state. And then the bad one will hit again.

[bsnatched]

I am having a really hard time dealing with the mood swings myself. They happen so fast that it is like my head is spinning like a top. They are usually legitimate but not to the extreme that I go to. I don't know whether I'm going to hit something, start crying or start screaming. Sometimes I feel like I am just going to spontaneously com-bust. But I do know one thing, it is not something I can just live with. Something has got to change. It scares me a lot. I never know what I am going to do if I don't drop dead of a heart attack first! Somethings got to give. It makes me feel extremely bad.
I'm not Gemini, I'm Taurus going head on!

Let me know if you find a way to get it under control.

[Liinu]

Oh, I most definitely will. But I guess some sort of behavioral therapy or something would work best. But at first, you need to understand where all those emotions come from.

My psychologist gave me this card for "mapping" anger. That was during the time I kept having rage attacks. It had like this iceberg drawn on it. And only the tip was above water and that said "anger" and under "the surface" it had all these different emotions like embarrassment and guilt and such written. So it was pretty much like.. I had to figure out where the anger came from. Like.. Why was I angry. Was I ashamed? Was I guilty? And then I had to write out what emotion was the most common and then we'd discuss where it came from. It was really helpful.

[kitten2012]

Originally Posted by Liinu

That's definitely me. But well yeah.. I can laugh at myself in a good state. And then the bad one will hit again.

Yeah, I'm the same way. I hope I didn't hurt your feelings. The only way I know to deal with things is to find some funny in them. I've been mood swinging my tushie off this week. Really really happy now and a few days ago, but more than my share of roller coasters in between.

[kitten2012]

Originally Posted by bsnatched

I am having a really hard time dealing with the mood swings myself. They happen so fast that it is like my head is spinning like a top. They are usually legitimate but not to the extreme that I go to. I don't know whether I'm going to hit something, start crying or start screaming. Sometimes I feel like I am just going to spontaneously com-bust. But I do know one thing, it is not something I can just live with. Something has got to change. It scares me a lot. I never know what I am going to do if I don't drop dead of a heart attack first! Somethings got to give. It makes me feel extremely bad.
I'm not Gemini, I'm Taurus going head on!

Let me know if you find a way to get it under control.

Yeah, get some backup! When I started going to the doc this last time (not my first journey into therapy), I was positively vibrating that first visit. I was shaking and twitching and trying to be calm enough to talk. My doc would ask me questions and it irritated me! The nerve, right - someone trying to help me and I'm so mad that she didn't just know what I was trying to say. I'm on meds now, which doesn't really address the borderline treatment exactly, but they sure do calm me down. Once you're there, you're there and you know it - get help. Professional, if you have the resources or even some kind of community program. You don't have to live like that all the time - just maybe part of the time.

[BrokenNBeautiful]

I am a Virgo (not sure about that astrology stuff either, but what the heck) and people have said to me that Virgo's are sensitive and feel more.

I too have moods that go up and down and all around. I will be happy, happy, laughing my head off, then fighting mad, then sad, then happy again.

Also, when I feel like ppl expect me to act sunny and positive all the time, that's pressure on me and I get resentful.

So, happy, mad, sad, glad, teary, what a mess.

I have e-motion sickness. lol

Billi

[Liinu]

Haha. E-motion sickness. (Y) Good one.

And I have that thing too, where people expect me to be happy. I'm known as the girl who always has a smile on her face. If only they knew what was hidden behind that smile.

And I'm so tired of living behind a mask. Even my own mother doesn't know the problems I'm dealing with. No one pretty much knows.

Originally Posted by Liinu

Haha. E-motion sickness. (Y) Good one.

And I have that thing too, where people expect me to be happy. I'm known as the girl who always has a smile on her face. If only they knew what was hidden behind that smile.

And I'm so tired of living behind a mask. Even my own mother doesn't know the problems I'm dealing with. No one pretty much knows.

I'm constantly smiling and living behind masks, too. The rule usually is, the minute I'm real, I'm left so fast that I don't even know what hit me.

[Liinu]

Yes! Exactly.