i rcvd a diagnoses this wk and im worried that im not coping with it very well

im doing a lot of hiding, finding it more and more difficult to communicate with my family even

im trying hard to stay in the present but find my thoughts going back to my past or even there being no thoughts, just blankness

im trying hard not to panic

i want to cry, for myself, but i cant

[missbelle]

At least you got a dx. Now they can make you feel better and can treat you. Its really a good thing you know. Just remember that you are still "you." You, as they say are not your dx. Its just something about you....It's ok.!!!! It really is...and we are here for you all the time......

thank you

[ChristySpirals]

I spiraled like crazy after my bpd diagnoses. I was also undiagnosed bp at the time so that may of had something to do with it as I was manic at the time. I agree with the above, you are still the same person you were before the diagnoses its just you are aware now. Oh if I would of reached out many years ago things would be a lot different today lol. Try to just stay in the present and work on today until this overwhelming feeling passes. That's my best advice.

[3little.birds]

Okay, so you said you don't want to cry, but I always feel better after crying my eyes out. It's such a relaxed feeling. It's scientifically proven to be a great release.

With a diagnoses at least you can now adjust your life accordingly now, no? You are not a different person, but now you have a set diagnoses for your issues, right? So you can try to catch behaviors that you have that you want to adjust, or notice different things that you want to change. This doesn't make change any easier necessarily, but your being aware is a first big step.

I'm really drunk now if any of that came out wrong.. But if you need someone to try to help sort things out with or just to talk feel free to pm me! You have been very helpful to me in the past I think you are a great person!

no, i WANT to cry but in the past weeks tears wont come - odd feeling,never happened before to this extent

thank you for your words- im having a MUCH better day today, i got dressed, did some housework, communicated with myfamily, got joy from my kids

....and, I picked up paper and pencils - i realised the other day that i dont know when i stopped drawing, i think it was when i was a teenager (a long long time ago) - anyway, im starting again. i sat in front of the jubilee pageant on tele and drew stuff - it was LOTS of fun :-)

thanks again
x

[BrokenNBeautiful]

there is still hope for us!

Don't give up.

You keep on!

Okay?

Billi

:-) todays not so good - the up and down is so bloody tiring - must be so awful for my family too (tho they are all prob used to it!)

i knew when i woke up it was going to be a tough day - i dreamt a lot last night and woke up with a very busy head wanting to clean the whole house - i stopped myself though and spoke to my other half and we decidedto take the boys out for a very long walk - i did some running too - im not sure it has made any difference though...but does that matter? at least i gotout of the house

blahblahblah boring myself
x

[3little.birds]

Exercise is a great thing! I need to get myself motivated to start doing that again =X lol. I've been bad lately.... Do you find that exercise helps stabilize your moods?

My ups and downs are ridiculous lately.

So I truly hear you there, .. I haven't been able to even keep up with my emotions. This usually only happens to me really bad when I am very stressed, but I'm not really now so IDK what my problem has been. Lol.

I hope the rest of your day will be awesome!

same here - i dont really have anything stressy going on apart from my own head/emotions! i thought maybe a walk/run with the kids would work but we were out for ages, i even ran all the way up a really steep hill and it did nothing to stabalise my mood

i've since had a sleep and thats helped a lot more! still feeling on the edge though so trying to be careful.

i think since realising whats wrong with me im noticing every little change in mood etc,more than usual. i guess this is a good thing since i can then experiment with what helps etc

im not v good with exercise usually btw - i really suffer with motivation problems - it helps having two boys though, they always want to go out!

[3little.birds]

I don't think it helps like in an instant on stabilizing your mood, I think it is more of regular exercise is supposed to stabilize your mood more long term. I could definitely be wrong though..

Yea I bet active boys does help! =] Dogs are good for motivation too-- they get so happy if you bring them on a walk!

[BrokenNBeautiful]

Sounds like you're trying really hard.

Good for you.

I know it is hard.

My head goes all the time too.

Also have trouble sleeping and with dreams.

Billi

last nights dreams were crazy - lots of people trying to get into my house

my other half almost never remembers his dreams