[Idkwhatswrong]

I am an 18 year old female and since I was young I had noticed I have very VERY bad mood swings that would change within minutes. Sometimes I feel great about myself or everything and in a split second I hate everyone and want to murder everyone. Or I'll feel happy and within minutes I'll feel sad and down. It's extremely hard to explain, but I will try as best as I can, I get this feeling inside where one side is like be angry with everyone and the other side is like be happy and I get so frustrated inside trying to figure out my emotion that my frustration comes out. My family lately has been telling me I could be Bipolar and they've thought so for awhile, but I don't think so. My irritability is out of the window. Any little thing is said or done and I become extremely irritated and pissed off. It can be from my grandfather wondering if i'm hungry and saying "Go ahead and eat an apple" I become irate. He just waved a yogurt in my face and I got irritated and almost went off It sounds silly, but I feel bad that I react towards my family like this. It gets to a point where no one can talk to me because they become upset with me that I get angry. I need some advice or how were your experiences with borderline personality disorder before you were diagnosed. Is this similar or could this be something completely different? I feel like I am lost with myself. I have a child as well and I get angry or irritated very quickly with her and I don't like that feeling.

I get up from a 5-9 hour sleep and every morning it does not fail, I wake up so irritated and I am irritated for about 2-3 hours then I am okay and happy and give it about 10 minutes and I'm feeling some other kind of emotion.
Suicidal thoughts? Daily basis. I think of different ways to harm or kill myself.
I get terrible headaches (don't know how relevant that is, but just throwing that in there).Due to my migraines that my neurologist diagnosed me with I have recently started a antidepressant that would supposedly help them called Amitriptyline or Elavil. I've only taken it three times, didn't like the effects and seemed to be making the headaches worse and it makes much more irritable

I have posted in the bipolar forum, and they mentioned borderline personality disorder. Did some research online and saw that the symptoms and characteristics fit me much more than bipolar did. Took the borderline personality disorder quiz on this site and got a 49....

[OctobersBlackRose]

Originally Posted by Idkwhatswrong

I am an 18 year old female and since I was young I had noticed I have very VERY bad mood swings that would change within minutes. Sometimes I feel great about myself or everything and in a split second I hate everyone and want to murder everyone. Or I'll feel happy and within minutes I'll feel sad and down. It's extremely hard to explain, but I will try as best as I can, I get this feeling inside where one side is like be angry with everyone and the other side is like be happy and I get so frustrated inside trying to figure out my emotion that my frustration comes out. My family lately has been telling me I could be Bipolar and they've thought so for awhile, but I don't think so. My irritability is out of the window. Any little thing is said or done and I become extremely irritated and pissed off. It can be from my grandfather wondering if i'm hungry and saying "Go ahead and eat an apple" I become irate. He just waved a yogurt in my face and I got irritated and almost went off It sounds silly, but I feel bad that I react towards my family like this. It gets to a point where no one can talk to me because they become upset with me that I get angry. I need some advice or how were your experiences with borderline personality disorder before you were diagnosed. Is this similar or could this be something completely different? I feel like I am lost with myself. I have a child as well and I get angry or irritated very quickly with her and I don't like that feeling.

I get up from a 5-9 hour sleep and every morning it does not fail, I wake up so irritated and I am irritated for about 2-3 hours then I am okay and happy and give it about 10 minutes and I'm feeling some other kind of emotion.
Suicidal thoughts? Daily basis. I think of different ways to harm or kill myself.
I get terrible headaches (don't know how relevant that is, but just throwing that in there).Due to my migraines that my neurologist diagnosed me with I have recently started a antidepressant that would supposedly help them called Amitriptyline or Elavil. I've only taken it three times, didn't like the effects and seemed to be making the headaches worse and it makes much more irritable

I have posted in the bipolar forum, and they mentioned borderline personality disorder. Did some research online and saw that the symptoms and characteristics fit me much more than bipolar did. Took the borderline personality disorder quiz on this site and got a 49....

We're not professionals so we can't say whether or not it is bpd, but you are always welcome to post in this forum. Hope to see you around

[kiki86]

we can't diagnose BUT if you feel the symptoms fit then it's probably likely. do you have a T?

[Girl_Interrupted]

BPD starts into your young adulthood/adulthood, but you can still be a moody/angry child, that develops BPD from not having ones needs met as a youngster.

I also get headaches every day. I don't know what to do about them

hi - nice to meet you

i was much more angry when i was younger - i still snap, easily on days where there is more stress but i have a better handle on it now (im 34 btw)

i didnt snap as much as you but thats cos i was told it was totally unacceptable and therefore not allowed - i internalized the anger a lot which has been as damaging just in a diff way

i would go to a doc with your thoughts

deffo post here whenever you like though - ive foound it invauable as a source of support

x

[cboxpalace]

Originally Posted by Idkwhatswrong

I need some advice or how were your experiences with borderline personality disorder before you were diagnosed. Is this similar or could this be something completely different?

I'd say it's different. You mention things that are traits of bpd, but they could be traits of other things as well. That's why it's best to see a psychiatrist for proper diagnose. From what you write "my opinion" I'm not convinced it's bpd. The irritability, suicidal thoughts, Lack of sleep/too much sleep could be depression, in fact, the sleep issues would be more depression related then bpd.. The not knowing who you are could be related to your age, and the stage of life you're in. There's many people your age when transitioning from teen to young adult don't fully know who they are.

It's also possible to have a primary diagnosis, and the traits of something else. You're always welcome to post here, ask questions, but be sure to see someone to be properly diagnosed.

[OctobersBlackRose]

Originally Posted by cboxpalace

I'd say it's different. You mention things that are traits of bpd, but they could be traits of other things as well. That's why it's best to see a psychiatrist for proper diagnose. From what you write "my opinion" I'm not convinced it's bpd. The irritability, suicidal thoughts, Lack of sleep/too much sleep could be depression, in fact, the sleep issues would be more depression related then bpd.. The not knowing who you are could be related to your age, and the stage of life you're in. There's many people your age when transitioning from teen to young adult don't fully know who they are.

It's also possible to have a primary diagnosis, and the traits of something else. You're always welcome to post here, ask questions, but be sure to see someone to be properly diagnosed.

I agree with you on that one, not to seem self centered, but Im only 20yrs old will be 21 in 3 months and idk what is going on with me, and just because I fit in with everyone on the bpd forum doesn't necessarily mean I have bpd, I do show traits though as with a few other disorders. I know that tomorrow Im going to see someone to get another evaluation since I haven't had one since I was 12 and they at the time couldn't figure out if I was MDD or bi-polar, so this is a good time for me to get another evaluation. I do know that I have anger issues and sometimes violent outbursts, I can go 24 to 48 hours on 0-3hrs of sleep, I have social anxiety pretty bad, can't connect with people my own age or make friends, even if I want to. Never been in a relationship so idk what that would be like, and I tend to be very clingy to my mom and grandparents, among other issues too many to name. Some are new within the past few years and other I've always had since childhood. im also in an identity crisis at the moment not knowing who Iam and I seem to be in a foggy reality at the moment, and feel like my mind is splitting down the middle (might be age related).

My point is we're not going to know what's going on with us unless we get a professionals insight and help. Hugs to everyone