Judgement day...

So for those that didn't know today was diagnoses day!!!

And it's been confirmed I have borderline personality disorder and I'm emotionally unstable.

The crazy thing is I don't feel anything about this. My mood is still good.
Maybe I feel a little relieved to know that there is something wrong with the way I think. And that I can now get the help I need.

But also scared that I'm sick!!

How did every one else react to the diagnoses?
I don't think I want to share this with the world that I have this,but then I don't feel ashamed after all they helped me to gain this illness!

It's now my responsibility to. Change this.

actually, with me- when i got all my diagnoses i was relieved (firstly because i felt something wasn't right) and also secondly because it was nice to know it was not all in my head.

maybe it's a strange way to look at things- i dunno.

but that's how i felt about it

I was happy for the diagnosis but a little background for the reasons. I had been in and out of Therapy for years and had been diagnosed with everything you can think of and none fit completely. I was researching bpd on my own and was pretty sure I was suffering from it. I have always had the goal to get help so it was a direction to to with the help I look for.

Don't be afraid, you're really not sick. The thing is you have unstable emotions, you're not broken or ill. I believe all of us are wired differently and bpd is just one way to describe a certain set of "wiring schematics" Now you can find the right electrician and replacement parts, so to speak lol.

Good luck! *hugs*

It took me years to seek help at first, I always knew that there was something wrong with me, When I did see a Pdoc he diagnosed me with BPD and I honestly had never heard of it before, He explained to me what it was and I couldn't accept that I had this until I read more about it I now I agree with the diagnosis.

Only the people very close to me know that I have this.

(((hugs)))

I have not officially been given the diagnosis. I was prescribed a "mood stabilizer" medication after being told I was not bipolar.

My professional career could be greatly affected if it was documented that I have BPD.

It is so unfair that this dx is considered such a horrible thing in society. I became this way because of the way I was raised and I will fix it; now that I know how.

I was relieved when I was diagnosed because it meant that I no longer had to wonder what was wrong with me.

I am in the same boat. As far as the diagnosis is concerned...

I agree that it is unfair that the diagnosis is considered horrible these days.

Greyclouds, I think it's great you want to change this! I think I wouldn't know what to feel if I were "officially" diagnosed, either! But I am glad you seem to have a plan to move forward...!

I was diagnosed "by accident"--I needed to log 6 hours of therapy for a degree I was getting. The therapist wanted to do a mental health survey first, the MMPI. The following week, he said, "Ahem," etc., then gave me the diagnosis and advised at least 2X weekly meetings, and DBT. Weekly meetings, okay, I could work that in, but what was DBT. And what, actually, afterall, since I hadn't heard of the term, was BPD? Unfortunately, at the time, everyone referenced the Glen Close movie, and other (un)lovely things like that. So, very shortly, I felt like a piece of **** . . . because I had to own all of the stuff I had pulled in the past--and mostly gotten away with. But, I was also gravely suicidal at the time, and I was grateful that, due to the circumstances, I had to accept help. That was 8 years ago. Now, I am a much more, shall we say, presentable person. I remain, though, as ashamed as I was, and often very sad. In 8 years, I thought I would either get A LOT better or be dead. I am far less violent and hostile, but I am, I think, depressed more often--not as severely as often as I was, though.

Although I was relieved to know what I had, I was scared of the stigma and the ramifications of having it, both the diagnosis and the condition.

I was diagnosed in 2001.

Carol