Would like to feel empty!!

So that guy, yeah that one I went on a few dates,
The one I said was freaking me out by being to full on.

Well now his like nothing at all? It's so weird.
And although I was freaked by his seen like he rushing in.
I now feel poo, cos I think he given me the brush off and for no reason.

I would really like to feel empty right now so I can stopping thinking, and makin stupid stuff up in my brain.

You know maybe I like empty, I don't question people that way, I don't do my own head in. And I don't question other people's behaviour cos I don't care when empty.

Stuff like that use to happen to me ALL THE TIME when I was single. And stuff like that happened all the time to my single friends. It is part of dating. A lot of times the guy will come on really strong, flowers, bring you to a nice place, call and speak to you for a hour on the phone. Then drop you like you're yesterdays news. It's not you. It happens to every single girl who's ever been in the dating scene. My friend who is more beautiful than words can describe has had this happen to her. You will feel bad, rejected, ugly, unloveable etc. and then in time, you'll forget the guys name. Really. Men have dumped me and I barely remember what they look like and I have no idea what their names were. So you need to cry and feel bad. Do it. Cry and feel bad. Just know there are millions and millions of girls who go through the same thing every single day.

Hugs

Thank you, and I do know this deep down....

Just hard trying to remember it.

((Hugs)) back,

And merry Christmas hope you have happy holidays xxx