[sweetthinker]

I have been in the same relationship for 13 years. I have started blaming myself for it not working out. My boyfriend doesn't really participate in the relationship much.

I have become very lonely in the relationship, and out of my loneliness, I have gotten really mad at him. There were times where I told him I might drink some cleaning fluid or something like that for attention.

In my other relationships, I am fine. I am able to hold down a job. I do not drink, injure myself, or do drugs. I do have anger issues, and I carry some trauma and shame from childhood.

Does it sound like I may have Borderline Personality Disorder? Would you need to know more? My boyfriend allows me to feel like the relationship failing is all my fault!

We cannot make the determination on what you have. You can read http://forums.psychcentral.com/borde...scription.html and other things to help. My advice is this: take time to do a lot of research on the topic and talk to us. If, after that, it seems to fit, you're probably right. A lot of people diagnose themselves before making it official. After all, a diagnosis is based on observation and if you're honest with who you are you can do it yourself. That doesn't mean you shouldn't see someone and make it "official" but you can do a lot of the work in the meantime on your own and we'll help you in your search of self-discovery.