[greyclouds]

I finally went to far, my impulsive behaviour, my selfish attention seeking ways. Finally took it to the limits.

I had no intention of dying. I called for help why taking the pills.
I have no idea what I was thinking or trying to achieve,

All I've done is scare and worry people who care and love me. And I've thrown it in there face.

I've put my kids at risk.
What the hell have I done!

I'm in the emergency room after spending the night, I have no idea what is going to happen now.
I'm to scared to speak. I feel guilt of even talking after my behaviour.

I'm so sorry you've had such a hard time. I had a feeling something happened. I wrote you a PM yesterday. You've got to try to talk to them and explain. I understand your guilt but only you can defend you and you have to try for your kids. I'll be thinking of you.

[AngelWolf3]

I am sorry this happened. I don't have any advice, but i am thinking of you most definitely. Please know that your kids still love you and you will make it through this, even though it probably feels like that's not the case.

[minefield]

Ooh no! You were doing so well.

You took an OD? I hope talking to me didn't trigger you into changing from hurting yourself to taking pills.

What happens next depends on how much you have taken. Most typically they will have a mental health nurse or a junior doc will come and do a risk assessment. When you tell them there was no intention to die they will most likely send you on your way with a referral to the crisis team.

If you have taken too much they will admit you for a couple of days and then go through the risk assessment.

Your in a safe place now, I will be thinking of you and hope they help you, I can't imagine the fear you must have of them taken from you. I really feel for you! Xxx

Hi Grey, I just heard about your crisis this morning.

I'm so sorry that this happened. I have been there and if you need to talk to someone, know that I'm here. I will pm you too in a moment but thought I'd post here to show my support

I wound up in the hospital years ago for something that I still regret. I didn't lose my children although it was deemed an attempt on my life, but like you I didn't have any intention of dying at the time. it was just severe enough that any arguments against that were ignored. I stayed 10 days in the mental hospital. I feel for you and know what a scary situation it is to face the repercussions of such behavior.

*hugs*
~S4

[greentires4me]

well I am glad you called for help at least...

I hope you feel better after talking with someone from psych...just explain to them what you are feeling, they can make whatever your experiencing better and know your not alone in this.

taking one moment at a time I am sure you can do that and just hang in there!!!

((grey)) I hope that you have got yourself help, I am thinking of you

I don't have any words of wisdom, but I wanted you to know that I'm thinking of you. I understand all too well how you're feeling right now, and I know how important it is right now just to know that people care for you.

[ruby.lestrange]

Just sending you positive and healing thoughts, grey. I hope that you're feeling a bit better today.

[greyclouds]

Thank you everyone. I got home yesterday. I want to well as you can imagine.

This morning I could barely stand for longer then 5 minutes.

But I've got right back into things. It's kind of helped. I've not had time to think to much of the guilt I feel. And how stupidly dangerous I was.

I'm to scared to even think about drink, let alone pour it down my throat.

I'm even to scared to take my vitamins!

I really scared myself. I never thought I could go that far. And I don't ever want to again. And I won't.
All meds have now been removed and I will no longer drink unsupervised.

I know that sounds extreme, but I have my children to live for. And they need me. How could I have been so ****ing selfish. I could of ruined everything.

Take care. Thinking of you.