[GeorgiaGirl413]

Emotions come like tsunamis
Engulfing me in pain & doubt & resentment & fear
Suffocating me then slowly retreating.
I can breathe again, but there is chaos all around.
Like pains of labor the emotions ebb and flow
Building to almost unbearable pain, then easing again
But the child is never delivered.
There is no joyful end,
Nor even a sorrowful one.
The waves come again, unannounced and angry
And I want to surrender to them
To let them carry me out to sea.
I am done in from struggling against the torrent.
I am not even sure for what I am struggling,
What is the reward should I not drown?
I wish to let the undertow take me, to give me release
To grant me peace
But instead I struggle still.

[pegasus]

(((((( GeorgiaGirl ))))))

Originally Posted by GeorgiaGirl413

Emotions come like tsunamis
Engulfing me in pain & doubt & resentment & fear
Suffocating me then slowly retreating.
I can breathe again, but there is chaos all around.
Like pains of labor the emotions ebb and flow
Building to almost unbearable pain, then easing again
But the child is never delivered.
There is no joyful end,
Nor even a sorrowful one.
The waves come again, unannounced and angry
And I want to surrender to them
To let them carry me out to sea.
I am done in from struggling against the torrent.
I am not even sure for what I am struggling,
What is the reward should I not drown?
I wish to let the undertow take me, to give me release
To grant me peace
But instead I struggle still.

Very nicely written... although I'm sorry for the reasons you have those words to say.. :'(

[TheRealFDeal]

Does writing give you any kind of release?

[GeorgiaGirl413]

Originally Posted by TheRealFDeal

Does writing give you any kind of release?

Writing does help me feel better. Sometimes, if I can get all those negative thoughts and emotions down on paper, I am able to get them out of my head. Gives that "itty, bitty, committee" up there a little less to discuss. Thanks for asking.

Originally Posted by GeorgiaGirl413

What is the reward should I not drown?

ain't that the truth...

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[Mustkeepjob32]

wow I'm impressed. It really hit home with me. I mean it is totally true. We suffer and suffer and then have a break from the whirlwind of emotions, but it is anticlimactic. It is not that bright light with flowers in the meadow and peace and elation that I guess we expect?

[cluelessgluten]

Wow! you really captured it with your words. Good job. All so true. Beautifully written.

[duende]

So sorry that this is how you've felt. I can definitely relate to that feeling of non-resolution after so much turbulence. Writing at least would seem to give you that piece of mind. I so badly want to dive into poetry and express all of this. But then I start over-thinking. Guess the only way to do it is to start.

Well-composed and expressed. I also like that, visually, as a whole your poem looks like waves. Thank you for sharing this, GeorgiaGirl.

[GeorgiaGirl413]

Originally Posted by duende

So sorry that this is how you've felt. I can definitely relate to that feeling of non-resolution after so much turbulence. Writing at least would seem to give you that piece of mind. I so badly want to dive into poetry and express all of this. But then I start over-thinking. Guess the only way to do it is to start.

Well-composed and expressed. I also like that, visually, as a whole your poem looks like waves. Thank you for sharing this, GeorgiaGirl.

duende, you are correct. Just dive in. Write what you feel without giving any real thought to it. Once you have those feelings down, you can begin to clean it up a little bit and turn it into poetry.

[GeorgiaGirl413]

Thanks to everyone for the wonderful complements.