[Angel of Bedlam]

I am not sure if it's a BPD thing, but does anyone have days where you wake up and seem to he overcome with anxiety and stress for no reason? I could barely scrape myself together and go to work today, I was so nervous about everything and felt paralyzed and exhausted. It's so hard for me to put myself together lately. I don't put on makeup anymore and more often than not look like a disheveled mess. I don't know what is wrong with me but I hate myself for it.

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[GeorgiaGirl413]

Been there, done that, got the T shirt. Also got the Rx for Xanax. When that "free floating" anxiety hits me there is little else to do but take a Xanax and eat a KitKat bar. Not sure if it's the med or the chocolate but in about 15 to 30 minutes I'm usually much better. Talk with your pdoc about an Rx if you don't have one.

[atomicc]

Yes, I'm the same way. Some days I just wake up and I'm anxious without reason or without end. I, like Georgiagirl, take a xanax and try to do something easy, or nothing at all. I've learned anxiety is just going to be part of my life forever.

[lynn808]

yes yes yes been there....was in fact today...but did make it out of the house...went to library to get some books on BPD...not much there but did find a few things to read about...hope this lasts til my first T app on 22nd....hoping to get there

[technigal]

Like Georgiagirl - been there, done that, have the t-shirt but I don't have the prescription. I am trying to find ways to combat the anxiety but so far I have not found anything that works for me

[Angel of Bedlam]

I take Neurotin and Vistaril for anxiety, but I have nothing prescribed PRN. I feel like such a loser today because I did NONE of my housework. Everyday, I typically do dishes, take out trash, vacuum, dust, wipe down counters, and pick up after a very naughty 4-year-old. I did nothing except get my son ready for daycare and make lunch. Now I have anxiety about going home. I HATE mess.

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[technigal]

Originally Posted by Angel of Bedlam

I take Neurotin and Vistaril for anxiety, but I have nothing prescribed PRN. I feel like such a loser today because I did NONE of my housework. Everyday, I typically do dishes, take out trash, vacuum, dust, wipe down counters, and pick up after a very naughty 4-year-old. I did nothing except get my son ready for daycare and make lunch. Now I have anxiety about going home. I HATE mess.

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You did the important things. Not everyday will you be able to do all you want. My husband posted on my facebook today a quote about not trying to change everything all at once but to take small steps. You did not get some household chores done, that does not make you a loser. That makes you a busy mom. There are days that it takes forever to get Robbie ready and he is 8. Give yourself a break.

[greentires4me]

I used to get that stress when I thought of my day and how busy I would be at work...I would down an energy drink to calm down myself but then I had more energy then before and be like a speedy Gonzales. Or some time I would have to have a hard candy to suck on to revive myself back into the present but my anxiety would make me wanna crush it but I would try to suck on it as long as possible.

[GeorgiaGirl413]

Originally Posted by Angel of Bedlam

I take Neurotin and Vistaril for anxiety, but I have nothing prescribed PRN. I feel like such a loser today because I did NONE of my housework. Everyday, I typically do dishes, take out trash, vacuum, dust, wipe down counters, and pick up after a very naughty 4-year-old. I did nothing except get my son ready for daycare and make lunch. Now I have anxiety about going home. I HATE mess.

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Angel, I know that feeling. And a mess does tend to make me more anxious. Maybe once you can get home you can use that anxious energy to tackle some chores. Can you get the 4 year old to help with something. I remember that when my oldest was that age nothing made her happier than a can of pledge and a dust rag. I could set her to work on the dining room table and chairs and it would keep her busy (til the pledge ran out). But she did a fair job of dusting and it gave me a breather. She also liked to clean baseboards. A bowl of soapy water and a rag and she would clean and clean. Try it and see.

[Angel of Bedlam]

Originally Posted by technigal

You did the important things. Not everyday will you be able to do all you want. My husband posted on my facebook today a quote about not trying to change everything all at once but to take small steps. You did not get some household chores done, that does not make you a loser. That makes you a busy mom. There are days that it takes forever to get Robbie ready and he is 8. Give yourself a break.

It's the lack of motivation lately that has been difficult to handle. I am used to being much more productive. Sometimes it's hard not to beat yourself up.

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[Angel of Bedlam]

Originally Posted by GeorgiaGirl413

Angel, I know that feeling. And a mess does tend to make me more anxious. Maybe once you can get home you can use that anxious energy to tackle some chores. Can you get the 4 year old to help with something. I remember that when my oldest was that age nothing made her happier than a can of pledge and a dust rag. I could set her to work on the dining room table and chairs and it would keep her busy (til the pledge ran out). But she did a fair job of dusting and it gave me a breather. She also liked to clean baseboards. A bowl of soapy water and a rag and she would clean and clean. Try it and see.

Good idea. It'll be easier later too, he won be such a ball full of energy. Part of the problem with my little one is that he doesn't like to be alone and always needs mommy attention. It makes it hard to have him need so much from me and stretch myself to do everything else. I'm anxious because after moving back in with my mom (who I haven't lived with since 17, long story how that came about), I have become responsible for all the cleaning during the week (she helps on weekends) and all the cooking. I am anxious because when things aren't done exactly right she tends to rip into me.

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