so hard to be bored as a bpd

I know I've made a thread like this before, but it is something I'm struggling terribly with. I'm not working (not for lack of trying) right now and I have oodles of free time. Others would find this wonderful, but it is what put me in the hospital back in november. I was on vacation from work for two days and couldn't handle being alone, being bored, etc. It leads to my bad coping behaviors like drinking and cutting. It leads to me feeling abandoned when people don't want to spend time with me.

I'm trying hard to use skills, but I can't distract myself at all. I feel like I should be doing something other than the thing I'm doing, but I don't know what that is. I feel empty. Bored. Useless. Etc.

Anyone have any suggestions or feel similar?

I know how you feel.... I spend most of my free days in bed watching TV... so not a good advice. I try to force myself to go out, see my horses... but there are days where event that is too much.
Sorry I can't help...

I know how you feel. Working gave me a reason for getting up and moving. Now I have no reason as DH gets the boy off to school right now. I need structure and right now I don't have it. I keep trying to do "busy work", right now I am knitting my great-niece a hat and working on a baby quilt, but I can only do that so much in a day. My house needs a good cleaning, especially the kitchen, but I just don't feel up to it.

Anyway, no words of encouragement just hugs and understanding.

It's good to know that people feel the same way.

I think that way about so many posts. Thankful that I am not the only one who feels these things.

I wrote you a note in the BPD check in thread...I hope it helps.

I did see that, thank you for the suggestions. Checklists like that do help me a lot! I need to get back into making them.

It doesn't always work, but if you make it sound like "I have to do these things" it seems to work more than not. I know how dangerous an idle mind is... Even as a kid, I remember constantly complaining that I was bored...

Oh I've definitely been there. I'm a university student, and breaks between semesters are the worst. What I do to help was working on something I liked. The last few breaks I would take an online course to keep me busy (unfortunately that is a pricey option). Since this break I don't have the funds for a winter course, I've been committing myself to practicing guitar, and forcing myself to do so by recording how long I practice and trying to meet a weekly quota. Those are things that have helped me, hopefully you can find something to occupy your mind as well.

I don't do bored well either! The hardest part for me is trying to find something to keep my interest long enough. Even watching TV is a 'chore' because my attention drifts so easily and I am always thinking about what I should be doing. Before long I'm up and about cleaning or 'something' again. It gets so old I can't stand it; it's how I'm wired and I just keep trying to find different things to break it up a little. Not much seems to last, but I continue to work on it. ADHD, OCD, BPD ~ them *****es lol.

yup. i hear ya.

I've been having the same problem a lot lately. I am constantly bored, constantly feel like I need to be doing something but at the same time I can think of nothing that I want to do, nothing that I can actually focus on and stick with. It's turned into a cycle that I can't seem to break and I don't handle it very well. I do at least have work, but even there I sit there bored unable to concentrate.

No solution I'm afraid, just understanding and hugs

Hi Secret,
I too feel this cycle of boredom with being bored.......cant get out....feel like I am wallowing around....just slogging through and not really getting anywhere. Does this even make sense...or am I talking just to me in my own little world..."hello"......hello....hello...... oh hugs of understanding and hopes we can jump out of this mire......I will lend you my hand...we can try to pull out together.....anyone else can join in too....