[Angel of Bedlam]

So I left my job last month because I just couldn't take being there anymore. My anxiety would be so high (for very little reason), that I would think of every reason not to go. I literally stopped going and calling. Well, I got an email from my boss today, asking me if I wanted to come back to work. I don't know of it's the right thing to do. I was looking into getting a job at the gas station right near my house. I figured it would be easy work, I'd be on my feet, and could easily walk on nice days. With the job, I've hit road block after road block. I have to have a million different licences like my alcohol permit and a food handler's permit... all of which cost cash that I just don't have.

I'm confused. Do I go back to my old position- one that I hate and that is commission based and flat out unenjoyable? Or do I find some way to keep paying for these permits so I can get the job I'd rather have? Any thoughts are greatly appreciated.

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[greentires4me]

here all ya need is 'serving it right' to work in a liqour store I doubt you wanna go back if its like that or something along those lines.

do what makes you happy and only try for a short term like part time

[Starling.]

I think it probably depends on your situation. Can you afford to not be working while you sort things out with the new job? Could you do the old job for a short time while you get something else sorted? What is it about the old job that makes you feel anxious? Is there any way you could manage the anxiety better? Do you think you'd feel that way in any job, or is it specific to that particular job?

Sorry for all the questions! I don't know what you should do. I can understand the anxiety though, and understand that it's a tough decision. I hope things go well with whatever you decide.

and this is how the lottery makes a killing. by the fact most of us feel so trapped in our sh__ty lives.

[allme]

Hi,

If I were you, I wouldn't go back. You will only go back to feeling like you did before. I left a really stressful job 4 yrs ago and although I miss it sometimes, I would never go back to all that anxiety it made me feel.

The job close to home sounds good!

Good luck with whatever you decide

[IDoNotExist]

Originally Posted by Angel of Bedlam

So I left my job last month because I just couldn't take being there anymore. My anxiety would be so high (for very little reason), that I would think of every reason not to go. I literally stopped going and calling. Well, I got an email from my boss today, asking me if I wanted to come back to work. I don't know of it's the right thing to do. I was looking into getting a job at the gas station right near my house. I figured it would be easy work, I'd be on my feet, and could easily walk on nice days. With the job, I've hit road block after road block. I have to have a million different licences like my alcohol permit and a food handler's permit... all of which cost cash that I just don't have.

I'm confused. Do I go back to my old position- one that I hate and that is commission based and flat out unenjoyable? Or do I find some way to keep paying for these permits so I can get the job I'd rather have? Any thoughts are greatly appreciated.

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I think I've seen you. Do you do youtube videos?

Anyway, I'd say just go back to something close to home while doing intensive therapy.

Is this uncomfortable job a part of your career/vocational path?
If not, it's probably not worth your health if you can subsist on the salary of the gas station job.

[Angel of Bedlam]

Originally Posted by IDoNotExist

I think I've seen you. Do you do youtube videos?

Anyway, I'd say just go back to something close to home while doing intensive therapy.

Is this uncomfortable job a part of your career/vocational path?
If not, it's probably not worth your health if you can subsist on the salary of the gas station job.

Lol no YouTube videos for me, although I've been thinking of doing them through recovery so people can help me and I could help them. It's not about salary for me. The issue I'm having is just the shear dread I feel when going to my old job. I emailed the lady back and said I could return to work. I figure if I could do it for a while, then maybe I can save up to get the job I really want. I'm just worrying about overcoming my anxiety during the time.

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[live2ski66]

Everything can be seen as a learning experience. The question is are we ready to learn. If you chose to go back to your old job it might be a reason. Perhaps your psyche is telling you this could be an opportunity to learn some anxiety management. For me what would scare me is not having an out. What would I do if my anxiety was so bad that it affected everything else in my life? If you have a therapist, you might be able to make an action plan and perhaps include your boss. Realize that anxiety is currently an issue, but you have a couple of options when you need a break. Personally, the ultimate job that generates anxiety for me is a full time commission jobs. I tried a few, never made a dime! I commend you!

[bpdtransformation]

Hi Angel,

May I ask what sort of job or what field the old, commission based job was in? Hope that is not creepy of me to ask

That does sound like a lot more pressure, where you have to constantly try to make sales or you don't get paid as much, compared to many jobs.

I had no idea one had to have multiple licenses like food/alcohol to work at food/gas stores. It's more complicated than one might think.

[Samwise_23]

Originally Posted by Angel of Bedlam

So I left my job last month because I just couldn't take being there anymore. My anxiety would be so high (for very little reason), that I would think of every reason not to go. I literally stopped going and calling. Well, I got an email from my boss today, asking me if I wanted to come back to work. I don't know of it's the right thing to do. I was looking into getting a job at the gas station right near my house. I figured it would be easy work, I'd be on my feet, and could easily walk on nice days. With the job, I've hit road block after road block. I have to have a million different licences like my alcohol permit and a food handler's permit... all of which cost cash that I just don't have.

I'm confused. Do I go back to my old position- one that I hate and that is commission based and flat out unenjoyable? Or do I find some way to keep paying for these permits so I can get the job I'd rather have? Any thoughts are greatly appreciated.

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I'm having a very similar experience. I can't keep away from the old work / life at the moment but ........... I broke down the bits of the job I could do and the bits I hated and have gone for something I believe will give me less pain overall. Problem is I just don't like being with people at all so maybe it's a vain hope.

My biggest worry is that bills need to be paid so there's no alternative to the work. No way to keep out of the fire for long so to speak. Not sure any of that helps?

Originally Posted by Angel of Bedlam

Lol no YouTube videos for me, although I've been thinking of doing them through recovery so people can help me and I could help them. It's not about salary for me. The issue I'm having is just the shear dread I feel when going to my old job. I emailed the lady back and said I could return to work. I figure if I could do it for a while, then maybe I can save up to get the job I really want. I'm just worrying about overcoming my anxiety during the time.

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It sounds to me, in spite of your anxieties and troubles, you are valued at this old job. This is leverage for you in a way. First think about a new job and the old familiar (though uncomfortable) job. I'm gonna venture a guess that it's possible your anxieties are not related directly to the job itself but working with people etc. or something else.. anyway what i mean is general issues that come with most jobs. Again, I'm guessing but.. with the new job you don't know for sure that the same anxieties might arise and cause the same problems. I know, for myself, my issues and challenges to with me everywhere and i have to deal with them personally and no change of job will probably make them go away. So, with the new job you're taking a risk, you have no rapport with the new employers and are not exactly valued as much -- meaning it may be more difficult with new people and environment. With your old job, you have this leverage where, you at least know they like you and value your work. There is a better chance even if only temporarily, to get over the issues there because of this. Lastly because they actually did come to you to come back, you know that at the very least you might be able to work out something with them if they understand your situation, your issues and challenges. They know you're a good worker and worth investing in, maybe they'll find a way to work out some plan that migh alleviate your anxieties.

Just some thoughts.