Just throwing this out there. My whole life, I have never asked anyone for help. Last year was the first time I asked, lost it, got so called diagnosed with this ****. Tried DBT, couldn't do it due to being triggered by others, and having a hard time trying to change my f***king thoughts. Therapist tried helping but I think they made it worse by rushing everything, not seeing the whole picture. Of course I feel abandoned now. I feel like such a loser because I keep running away because I don't know how else to deal with all this. Now trying to get on proper meds, going back to see psychiatrist (as mentioned in previous post) but the thing that is messing me up is I feel like in their eyes they're thinking she's fine..nothing wrong with her. But I know my head is so far gone...just done...don't want to continue this way. Should I tell them this? I can't shake this awful feeling of feeling I don't belong in this world.

[Dewbot]

I know what it's like, and I know that what I'm about to say is so much easier said than done, but remember... mindfulness in the moment.

You're doing the right thing right now at this very moment which is extremely positive so you've got that going for you. Focus on that and don't focus on what everyone else is thinking.

Mindfulness in the moment.

[Achy Turtle Armor]

It seems some of us fluctuate between feelings of am I really this "sick" or not. I bet they know that you need help but they may not know how desperate you feel at times.

Yes. Tell them. I have never regretted being honest with my T or other Pdocs.

[Lefty_Mac]

Originally Posted by Sorcerer 666

Just throwing this out there. My whole life, I have never asked anyone for help. Last year was the first time I asked, lost it, got so called diagnosed with this ****. Tried DBT, couldn't do it due to being triggered by others, and having a hard time trying to change my f***king thoughts. Therapist tried helping but I think they made it worse by rushing everything, not seeing the whole picture. Of course I feel abandoned now. I feel like such a loser because I keep running away because I don't know how else to deal with all this. Now trying to get on proper meds, going back to see psychiatrist (as mentioned in previous post) but the thing that is messing me up is I feel like in their eyes they're thinking she's fine..nothing wrong with her. But I know my head is so far gone...just done...don't want to continue this way. Should I tell them this? I can't shake this awful feeling of feeling I don't belong in this world.

Yes you should. Also pick a therapist that doesn't worsen things - I think I'm gonna need at least 4 years of therapy to improve myself, and I'm being optimistic. Same thing that happened to you happened to me. Just spill your guts - there's NO other way of doing it. And a fair warning: it ain't gonna be pretty. But certainly worth it.

[Fuzzybear]