[lynn808]

I dunno.

it never seems to last, any relationship. men or women.

I have never had a bff last more then 10 yrs or so...

after string of boyfriends and casual friends with males, I cannot seem to make it last

4 yrs, bf
15 yrs, bf then husband, then divorced
another 15 yrs, friend, w/bens, both dated, he passed away on me.
and now latest man in my life...6 yrs...I have recently left.

I am never first with a love, and I want someone to care about me before everyone else. I don't know...is that too selfish???

But, alas...I am alone again. destined to be this way.
I am getiing way too old and way too tired to start all over again and again and again

must I re-invent myself again???? geeeesh

and with the computers.....everything has changed.
I feel so all alone out here
I need a friend or 2 to say hi.
Sorry to take your time up.
thanks for reading.

[kaliope]

hi lynn
maybe it is just perspective. those relationships lasted years...that is pretty significant........

maybe it is time to have a relationship with you. as you said, reinvent yourself or just get comfortable with being who you are alone. I have been alone 11 years now and am really enjoying the benefits of living life for myself. every now and then I think about a relationship but then I think about al the freedom I would have to give up and I am not ready to go there. I like me by myself.

just an idea. take care

[angelarun2001]

darling my relationships only last for 2 months, and i dont have any close friends!! hope it makes you feel better )

[jean17]

Originally Posted by lynn808

I dunno.

it never seems to last, any relationship. men or women.

I have never had a bff last more then 10 yrs or so...

after string of boyfriends and casual friends with males, I cannot seem to make it last

4 yrs, bf
15 yrs, bf then husband, then divorced
another 15 yrs, friend, w/bens, both dated, he passed away on me.
and now latest man in my life...6 yrs...I have recently left.

I am never first with a love, and I want someone to care about me before everyone else. I don't know...is that too selfish???

But, alas...I am alone again. destined to be this way.
I am getiing way too old and way too tired to start all over again and again and again

must I re-invent myself again???? geeeesh

and with the computers.....everything has changed.
I feel so all alone out here
I need a friend or 2 to say hi.
Sorry to take your time up.
thanks for reading.

Dear Lynne808, I'm am so sorry that you feel so bad. I really do understand; it's the same for me. It is very lonely being so alone, but there is no one here for me and maybe that's a good thing because I don't trust myself that another relationship won't just be like all the previous ones. It' tempting to try to find someone online just to talk to, but it's just not safe. I'll get hurt and taken advantage of again. It's hard to accept that we might be alone forever. I don't know what to say. I just really understand. That doesn't make it an easier for you. Just stay safe. I send you .