I don't know what to do

My psychologist didn't believe there was anything wrong with me, and it's been so long that I know how to function when I'm around people at school and stuff, and I don't know how to show people what's actually going on. I don't know what to do! help

so you are saying on the outside it looks like you are fine because you have learned how to stuff it all in and function despite what is really going on inside? I find it helpful to write all the craziness I am really feeling down so that I can better express it when I go for help.

You're acting inwardly whilst others in your situation may act outwardly, which does not make your problem any less valid. It may appear to diminish your symptoms to some, if they don't know what you're really thinking or feeling.

Personally, I'd it were me, I'd be looking for a T that believes and understands my situation and can provide me with coping skills to healthily address my emotions.

Be well and know that with proper guidence things can change.

It's not the role of your psychologist to 'believe' you - they're there to assess symptoms and provide the appropriate treatment. If they're not capable of that, for whatever reason, you need to find someone better qualified. In the meantime research as much as you can about your condition as well as what advocacy options are open to you. Seek out real life support groups to supplement any online help you may be receiving.

BPD has different symptoms, severity, and cycles for each person - some people are mostly high functioning and have difficulty letting their guard down to receive the help they do need. But that doesn't make them less worthy of treatment. The bottom line is that BPD needs highly skilled professionals - and lets face it, there's not often an abundance of them. So you need to keep going, keep looking and don't give up - this is a highly treatable condition if the right sort of help is given.

All the best.

Hopelovely,

Can you share a bit more about these feeling you are having? Please elaborate beyond what you have already.

Questions for you: How long did you see your psychologist? And what were the initial reasons for doing so?

Do you mean that you feel as though there is an obstacle in the way of expressing yourself? Do emotions come out of the blue and without warning - leaving you with more questions?

Perhaps you feel the need to, "let go," but you cannot?

I know that for me - I cannot seem to, "let go," unless I am in therapy. But even more specifically - I need to feel trust, otherwise it's VERY rare that I ever express myself around others.

Is this something that rings a bell?

Thanks,
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Not feeling validated by a doctor is very very hard. It happens a lot actually and it is bullcrap and it makes me really mad. I had suicidal depression in a psychotic episode last year that lasted months. It got so bad I could not take it another day and I told my Pdoc I wanted to kill myself, that I had it planned and how I would do it.. and that I was scared that I would and I wanted help. He told me most suicides are impulsive... end of story and I never went back. I kind of thought he would contact me like a policy for suicidal patients... but he never did and I lost all hope in the mental health care system. That is just me, and I am a huge baby... you need to vocalize your feelings, tell your doc you are feeling like you aren't being taken seriously, and you would appreciate it they could, for that is what you pay them for. If this is not what you are talking about I am really sorry, it just reminded me of my pdoc and our situation. I hope you can resolve it with them or maybe reach out to a new one? I know that can be stressful too though. Let us know hon