[ThunderGoddess]

I wrote it to help him better understand the way I think because he is so ridiculously logical he just doesn't get it but after reading this he said it helped him understand me more and that he can't possibly think that many thoughts at one time so he gets how I feel overwhelmed now. And I now understand better how he isn't able to process my constant switching of moods and thoughts. Doing stuff like this together is what helps keep us together in my opinion. It really helps to feel he is trying to understand me and is on my side.

Letter to a non <3

If I told you to feel anxious anytime you leave the house, could you?

Would you be able to ignore the information you have received about time and travel? Though you seem to have enough time to get to work tell yourself you are late and must rush to get the bus!

Alright, then you can just say it you don't have to believe it, yet!

Say to yourself I'm going to get yelled at by the boss or maybe even fired.

Keep thinking about being late, now add to your rotation of thoughts. The people sitting across from you on the bus keep staring at you. Don't look! If you look at them they will say mean things to you.
Check your watch tell yourself you're going to be late then start to think why they are staring at you...

Tell yourself they think your stupid
Tell yourself they are laughing at what your wearing
Tell yourself they think you're ugly

Now don't forget you're still late and those people are still staring at you.
It's time for a couple more thoughts in the rotation.

Tell yourself most people you know do not like you
Tell yourself most people you know try to avoid you
Tell yourself most people you know think you're stupid

Okay, still with me?
You're late and in big trouble, those people haven't stopped staring at you, most people you know avoid and dislike you.
Just a couple more thoughts, I don't want you to go too crazy

Now remind yourself you're pretty sure girlfriend cheated on you
She doesn't hug you often because she gets that affection from another person
She thinks your stupid, ugly and dress weird just like those people staring at you

Now read this every 3 minutes for 20 minutes a day to start and that's how you can take steps to changing your life to be more like mine.

(As difficult as all this sounds for you to implement into your own life, it's just as difficult for me to tell myself NOT to be anxious and NOT to think these thoughts. Thanks for reading love you!)

[kaliope]

that is really a great way to put it into perspective for him. i love it. great job!

[Crazy Hitch]

It's a great way of explaining it to non BPD.

Thanks for this.

[allme]

I never connected these thoughts to BPD ie feeling ugly and stupid...I just thought that was me!! I do exactly what you have written and it is so exhausting. It has got to a point where I now isolate myself...sometimes my husband will talk me into doing things but mostly, I enjoy staying at home with my husband and dogs. Even walking down the street to the shop I fear ppl walking past are going to spit at me or attack me for looking so ugly. I am assured I look normal but when I look at myself I see abnormal and ugly. It is so sad

Thanks for sharing!

[ThunderGoddess]

I am in the same boat allme! I very rarely if ever leave my house unless my boyfriend is with me and I actually had to ask him to calm down in public because he gets really hyper sometimes and I could not handle people looking at me it's extremely exhausting!

[ThunderGoddess]

Thanks hooligan I'm glad you like it I was very curious how other pw BPD would relate or feel about it so I thank you and kaliope for the response!!