Hello I am new here so sorry in advance if this post is a bit weird as I am still getting used to the site.

I have been diagnosed with Depression(major), GAD, social anxiety and OCD(severe) but recently my psychologist has mentioned that I may have BPD as well. He keeps saying I have traits of BPD but isn't saying much more which is kind of making me stressed. I did one of the test things on here and scored 43 and I will try and describe some of the things I am dealing with.
I have a lot of mood swings and I often get very angry at people particularly when they are leaving, I often disassociate, I never feel connected to anything and I always feel very empty and bored in a way like I just can't seem to find something inside of me and there is nothing there. I will do and say a lot of things to try and make people like me or if I think it will make them stick around and I will often tell people (sometimes ones I have just met) very personal details even though I don't trust them. I have a lot of trouble trusting anyone actually but at the same time I will often think someone is absolutely amazing and the best in the world and then I will start to hate them for no reason. I also don't feel real almost all the time and I don't feel like I am a person like I don't think there is a me if that makes sense. I have never been in a relationship (I am 17) but that is because of my many OCD issues but I do often long for one as I am always lonely. I don't have many friends and I am always worried they will leave me if I do or say something wrong.

Possible trigger:

I also self harm (cutting, hitting, scratching skin and hair pulling) and am suicidal a lot

Also I am not sure if I used the trigger thing right but I thought I should put it on in case

[freespirit37]

Could be. You could google BPD DSM criteria and see if you think it fits.

Also, a lot of teenagers are diagnosed with this and grow out of it. There is hope!

Thank you i should mention i forgot a few things i have been in hospital a few times because i had psychotic symptoms which were mostly thinking people were going to hurt me and hearing things and there are a few others which i don't know how to explain. but i do get quite paranoid about things and i cant stand being alone either. Also i have had these feelings for a while but i have been reluctant to speak to my psychologist about it because i was kind of embarrassed, not to mention i have a huge fear of hospitals and whenever i am there i often end up lying to get myself out not because i want to but i was nearly sectioned and put on a court order and i cant have that happen. i never feel stable though and i cant see to keep my mind in one place and i have looked up the criteria and i do think i fit it i also took the test on this website and got a score of 43 the only thing is that one of the criteria is something like do you binge eat, gamble, drive recklessly, engage in reckless sexual acts and some other things and it says you need 2 or more of those things and i certainly binge eat but some of the things i would never be able to do due to my age and my OCD but i do other things i guess that might fit into that category. also i have tried to ignore all of this but i cant and i feel horrible all the time and i guess i just want someone to give me an answer be cause my psych is being so vague and it is making me nervous.

oops i forgot again. i always feel worthless as well and i often fight with people and i dont really ever feel like people love me even if they say it 100 times i never feel like they do and most of the time i feel everything so intensely that it goes numb and i cant feel anything but at the same time i feel everything. i can never make up my mind and i am always feeling 5 different emotions at any given time and i dont have hopes or dreams or likes or dislikes or know what i really want to do which i guess is somewhat normal at my age but i just feel like nothing and so empty all the time and i really dont know how to explain it and i have probably forgot a bunch of other things but i think i am going to stop there.

Does anyone else have an opinion on the matter?

[AzulOscuro]

Hi!
I'm not diagnosed with BPD but I'm about to see a therapist bc I possible have some traits or the disorder, so my opinion is not from someone who knows a lot about BPD.

I'm sorry you have to deal with all that suffering.
In my opinion it's very good that the borderline issue was mentioned by your therapist. It means you are being open enough with him/her. And that you overcame this embarrassing feeling to talk to your therapist about all your symptoms. I read that there are many symptoms that are unoticed bc the patient is not awared of them.

I encourage you to go on talking to your therapist about the topic and see if (s)he can help you in therapy or recomends you a more specialized therapy.

I wish you soon find your answers. Good luck!

Thank you he keeps saying I have traits but won't give me a straight answer but I hate asking for things including help which is probably effecting my progress badly but I find it so hard or saying I feel bad is hard to because I feel like I am bothering everyone and I hate to be noticed but at the same time if I am not I also get very upset ugh I don't even know anymore.

[Gavinandnikki]

We're not allowed to diagnose, but your descriptions of your feeling
, thoughts and actions sound pretty consistent with BPD. Just keep as open as possible with your therapist do you can be helped to manage.
You define yourself, not a diagnosis, right?

Thank you I am aware you guys can't diagnose I was just wondering if you thought it sounded like it was BPD seeing as you might have a good idea.