What is going on with me?

U can't u talk to ur friends?

Why can't u talk to ur friends?

Ughhh I just had stupid behaviour in the past so I'm suffering the consequences of the aftermath. I'm dying inside. Literally dying. At a point in time when I need my friends the most? I can't even speak to them.

It's been 28 days since I've spoken to my friends.

Yes 28 days.

Twenty eight days.

I don't know who in their right mind wouldn't have lost the plot by now if they were locked out from speaking to their friends!

This is torture.

Full stop.

I am NOT a Hooligan

I want to chat to my friends

Nobody is listening to me

Hi Hooligan,

I'm sorry it must seem so frustrating, so lonely, so isolating to be cut off like that??
Although, I know it's not the same, there are still plenty of us on here who care about you, so if you need to talk.........might even be an opportunity for now for you to build up more of your friendships on here??? So if we can fill that hole just a little.........???
Maybe have a think about some of the things you'd like to say to your friends if you were talking to them, and run some of those things by us if you can???
Although don't forget while you're on PC you're not alone

And the "stupid" behavior in the past.........I'm guessing it wasn't "stupid" , there were reasons..........maybe you were hurting, maybe you were struggling, maybe you weren't in a position to realise it's real effects............?? But not "stupid"!!
Still, if you can learn anything from it (depending om the situation!!)............hindsight's always good, shame it comes after the fact!!

Anyway, like I, said don't forget we're here for you too if you want to talk..........if you want to talk to people who care about you anytime

Alison

Thank you Alison

I'm still dying.

Hi Hooligan,

I know it really can't be easy, it is a loss
And losses alone can be really hard, but you were/are having a hard time anyway, right??
I wish it could be easier for you, but they were/are your friends and you clearly did/do care about them so it is completely understandable how you are hurting so much
But just try to remember this can ease with time, you can make it through this.
And you know some of this is a testament to you about how caring you are, and with that you are going to be finding more caring people in your life, who can really appreciate you and offer you true friendships as well, if you "leave the door open" for them.
So please try not to allow this experience to cut you off from that. It might take time, it might take more grieving for the friends you've had, but you can make it through.
And don't forget some of the friends you have on here too, try to let them/us help you through this, hey??

Alison

Thanks Frank for the encouraging words - yup I totally agree with you - "you can make it through this" - exactly right. No matter how bad it seems well we all overcome our own adversities.

Wait... What happened to the other thread about friends? I could swear I put a reply in there.,, or am I losing it lol.

Anyway.. To imposed isolation, *raises glass*

Words became demons, twisting and writhing
Was it you or I that cast the invitation?
Shut away and banished, too late
Their destruction complete
An ending wrought