[ThunderGoddess]

I've been under a lot of stress since I started working in animal welfare it is very emotional but rewarding work. Maybe it's the stress from work I don't know. But I am obsessed with this person at my work I think about him all the time I don't see him very often thankfully I feel like that would only make it worse.

I am still with my long term boyfriend and our relationship is going well I think we could always make improvements but we are building a life together and I know he is the right person to spend my life with.

So I just don't understand why I keep thinking about someone else I feel like I am in love with this other person and I have only spoken to him at work. I know it's not real love it's the obsessed kind when you want something to be yours but you know in the long the run it isn't good for you. It just bothers me how good I feel when I think about this person like I'm high on adrenaline.

I want to stop and I wish I could paint him black :/ but I don't consciously make the choice to paint someone black or golden it just happens and right now this dude is shining the the damn sun on clear hot August day >

Yeah, i used to get obsessed over new people. I found it was because i didn't know them well and it was exciting and i could fantasize that they had all these fantastic attributes. I remember one guy i was so into i drove to a parking lot and just became lost in thought about him. He turned out to be one major assh@le and i was lucky i didn't bother my partner about him. It's so easy to romance someone you don't know well. Just take it easy and you'll see his feet of clay all too soon.

[ThunderGoddess]

Yeah I think it's the fact that you can make the person into whatever you want! Any fantasy can be molded to them because you really don't see any of their flaws or really in this case I barely know anything about this person so I think of all kinds of things that maybe I think I'm lacking in my relationship right now. Although I know what I am lacking can not be filled by another person it's inner work I need to figure out I know I can't jump from one person to another trying to fill the voids. Thanks for your reply and support!