[CrayCentral]

I’m just curious about how and what makes BPD symptoms better or worse and if once they’ve fluctuated to all new lows can they recover back to original form?

It’s just difficult for me to understand how things got so bad and whether or not I’ll be able to recover back to at least where I was 4 years ago. Trying to remember a day where I was happy is pushing it, but at least 4 years ago I was proactive and higher functioning.

If it helps I’ve had a psychotic and mental breakdown a few years back and with a lot of help trying to understand myself I was able to identify BPD. Drugs and alcohol have always been a problem since age 14, but now it’s almost impossible to cope without.

[cryingontheinside]

Originally Posted by CrayCentral

I’m just curious about how and what makes BPD symptoms better or worse and if once they’ve fluctuated to all new lows can they recover back to original form?

It’s just difficult for me to understand how things got so bad and whether or not I’ll be able to recover back to at least where I was 4 years ago. Trying to remember a day where I was happy is pushing it, but at least 4 years ago I was proactive and higher functioning.

If it helps I’ve had a psychotic and mental breakdown a few years back and with a lot of help trying to understand myself I was able to identify BPD. Drugs and alcohol have always been a problem since age 14, but now it’s almost impossible to cope without.

In my own experience drugs and alcohol made my bpd symptoms so much worse and my lifestyle very chaotic. Even though I've stopped drinking and taking drugs I have a lot of cravings for it at times. Lucky for me I've moved and lost contact with people I can get drugs from , drink I can get but I just haven't even though I would like to I know it will make things worse .

Medication is another thing that can help treat symptoms of BPD , but its probably less affective with drink and drugs .

Therapy too can help.

I understand drink and drugs being a way to cope because I used them for the same reason. I also understand feeling that you need it .

Have you ever considered giving up drugs and alcohol ? It would be difficult at first and you would need support . I found na and aa meetings helped . your life could become much more stable and you could focus on getting the help for your BPD .

[technigal]

Originally Posted by CrayCentral

I’m just curious about how and what makes BPD symptoms better or worse and if once they’ve fluctuated to all new lows can they recover back to original form?

It’s just difficult for me to understand how things got so bad and whether or not I’ll be able to recover back to at least where I was 4 years ago. Trying to remember a day where I was happy is pushing it, but at least 4 years ago I was proactive and higher functioning.

If it helps I’ve had a psychotic and mental breakdown a few years back and with a lot of help trying to understand myself I was able to identify BPD. Drugs and alcohol have always been a problem since age 14, but now it’s almost impossible to cope without.

Through medication and therapy I only have traits now. Four years ago when I was diagnosed was a really rough time in my life. My son was diagnosed with autism and it made me feel like a bad mom because I had trouble coping with him. Everything spiralled out of control. It has not been easy these last 4 years but I have made huge steps of progress. Drugs and alcohol have not been an issue for me.

[CrayCentral]

Originally Posted by cryingontheinside

In my own experience drugs and alcohol made my bpd symptoms so much worse and my lifestyle very chaotic. Even though I've stopped drinking and taking drugs I have a lot of cravings for it at times. Lucky for me I've moved and lost contact with people I can get drugs from , drink I can get but I just haven't even though I would like to I know it will make things worse .

Medication is another thing that can help treat symptoms of BPD , but its probably less affective with drink and drugs .

Therapy too can help.

I understand drink and drugs being a way to cope because I used them for the same reason. I also understand feeling that you need it .

Have you ever considered giving up drugs and alcohol ? It would be difficult at first and you would need support . I found na and aa meetings helped . your life could become much more stable and you could focus on getting the help for your BPD .

I do feel that you’re on point. It’s like a chaotic life cycle that has to be maintained holistically or else it’s difficult not to allow other problems to affect your health on top of it all.

I’ve been on all kinds of medication and the anti-depressants really numbed me out in a nice way while I was on them, but with the help of my girlfriend at the time I made the decision to taper off hoping that feeling anything would be enough inspiration to help move forward together.

I thought she wanted to genuinely help me get through this all, but I don’t blame her anymore for leaving as soon as she couldn’t cope with the way I handled my withdrawal symptoms. It’s just things keep unravelling more on how much worse everything’s gotten since she came back into my life and left.. I don’t want to take medication again, but maybe I should definitely consider it.

Drugs and alcohol is something I keep trying to quit, but am having extreme difficulties. I haven’t been able to stay sober for longer than 5 days without smoking marijuana as a substitute. Medication and therapy definitely seems like my next moves

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Originally Posted by technigal

Through medication and therapy I only have traits now. Four years ago when I was diagnosed was a really rough time in my life. My son was diagnosed with autism and it made me feel like a bad mom because I had trouble coping with him. Everything spiralled out of control. It has not been easy these last 4 years but I have made huge steps of progress. Drugs and alcohol have not been an issue for me.

This is awesome. Sounds like a BPD success story.

Can I ask, how were you coping throughout majority of your life pre diagnoses?

[technigal]

Originally Posted by CrayCentral

This is awesome. Sounds like a BPD success story.

Can I ask, how were you coping throughout majority of your life pre diagnoses?

Not well. I was angry a lot. Happy one minute, angry the next. I am shocked that my husband stayed with me through it all, we have now been married 15.5 years. I was also on meds most of the time since I was 25, just not the right ones.