struggling with cycling

Hey guys im rly struggling with cycling. I dont know how much longer i can handle goin between starving nd binging nd purging. I am so disgusted with myself. No one else in the whole world knows im bulimic nd i dont know how 2 admit 2 it 2 get help.

I just saw this post today, or I would have replied sooner. I am sorry you are going through this right now. You can post more here when you feel comfortable; everyone is really supportive...I hope you find the help you need; it sounds like you want it.

No one else in my "real Life" world knows I am how I am, so I know what you mean. At least here, you are not alone. Please keep posting. and Welcome to PC...

thanx. ur right everyone on here is super supportive. i finally got up the courage to tell my best friend. bsides u guys shes the only one in the world tht knows abt it. shes trying to b super supportive ndik tht shes trying to do wht she thinks is best 4 me but she like keeps talking abt seeing therapists ad specialists nd asking questions abt it nd im not sure if im ready 4 tht

Definitely just take your time, I am definitely not a great advice person, but sometimes a therapist, or as some call them here,"T", is a good thing. But getting a T has to be your decision, when you are ready! I think that telling your best friend is a good first step.

Totally good for you, what was it like?
(I haven't told anyone...don't know if I can or will...but it would be good to have some support in RL other than T.)

I'm also going through these cycles. Restricting then crazy b/p. I hadn't told anyone in real life until recently, when I was drunk one night I was talking to my now partners male friend who has an ED and he kinda picked up on it. Since then I feel like I'm more out of control.

I will be seeing a pdoc and hopefully can talk about it because it's to the point that I can't control it at all. I'm constantly feeling sick, looking sick. It's a horrible cycle. I don't think you can be forced to get help, like I know I *need* it, but I'm not sure I want to be better in the sense of getting fat. That vicious ED voice again.

Hopefully when you're ready you can find a good therapist. It's good to have online support too, but I think there comes a point where it's just starting to ruin your life. Well in my case it definitely is.