Why is food so sad?

Today, my friends brother decided to guess everybody's weight. My heart sunk to my stomach. I've recently stopped purging because I gained a little bit of self confidence, all of that went straight to hell today. He guessed my weight exactly, and my friend sensed I was becoming uncomfortable so she said I weigh the same as her. That made it a lot worse. She's clearly smaller than me, but I understand why she did that. I guess she thought she was helping which I'm thankful for. But after she said that, her brother said "********" What a confidence booster huh? I feel like I'm about to fall off the wagon, which isn't suprising. This has been happening for about a year now and I can't stop. I have to excuse myself from eating in public sometimes because i just end up crying my eyes out. The sad part is, after I'm done purging, I literally can not look myself in the mirror. I'm too ashamed to get help but not enough to stop.

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Hi, Lie to Me, and again, welcome to Psych Central!

Boy, that friend's brother sure is insensitive. Maybe next time he tries to play this cruel guessing game, you can either tell him to stop or just get away from him.

Are you seeing a therapist about your purging? Of course, it's important to lose weight in a healthy way.

Thank you. It's great to be welcomed by so many friendly people. I haven't gone to a therapist because since I haven't started again, I would think it doesn't apply to me yet. Plus I don't know who to talk to to get therapy started. Especially because I'm dealing with more than just an eating disorder.

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Hello and a real big WELCOME to PC and all it has to offer, which is a great deal!
Yes, I have to agree with you regarding you needing to see a therapist or health care professional. Could you not put finding help at the top of your list PLEASE. Don't waste your good young life on being cruely caught up in the grip of an ED that's out of control. Don't EVER EVER be ashamed to ask for help, there's no need to keep it all inside ~ if you do the latter it will hurt and damage you for sure. I know because that's exactly what I've been doing for the last 30 plus years ~ hid it away. Do come back and let us know how you got on. HUGS. XXX