CPTSD

I can't believe there is a thread here for this problem! It's so complicated. Everytime i turn around, I am triggered or hurt. I relive things all the time and do my best to stay busy. No one understands this...

I too am always keeping myself distracted and get triggered or upset by many things. And still I'm still learning about this disorder and just how many parts of my life it affects. You aren't alone! <3

It can be treated

I think you found some people that can at least partially understand.

#hugs

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((fallin star)) for many the triggers they experience have a lot to do with how their personal boundaries have been disrespected or threatened and discarded by others. It may be due to several traumatic intrusions over several years rather than just one big event. Or, several events where an individual faced emotional/verbal/personal boundary abuse until one larger event took place where the individual developed PTSD, but that it is more complex that the one big event.

I was diagnosed with this and really understand why I have it, but it seems very misunderstood. I was triggered a couple of weeks ago and am still getting over it. The thing is that I am not just hit with that one event, I relive multiple things and it is depressing. Once I was triggered, it seemed I hated everything. Everything made me feel sick and still does to some extent. I mean where I live, what I eat and people around me.

hi falling star,
I have it too . my therapist doesn't like the word relive when she did dual awareness w me in counseling last year .she used the word revisit the traumatic events .




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I think revisit is not even close to what happens. I go back in my mind and sometimes my body feels everything. All my emotions and feelings are caught up in that moment years ago. But if it helps to think that way that's good.

I believe it is different for everyone. Some people have full blown flashbacks with visual representation. But for many others with cPTSD it is unspecified; totally emotional.

I go back in emotion, fear and feeling only. Anyone could confront me and make me feel unsafe.

One person revisits, another relives. Saying one can "think what they want to think" is not supporting someone's struggle.

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Well I hope it did not make you feel bad.

I revisit and relive

It sux. A lot.

Yes yes yes, you hit the nail on the head with the BODY. I have spent years reading and reading and reading about narcisstic parents, alcoholic parents, physically abusive parents and why and how and what they do and why and how and what that does to us........mentally and emotionally.

BUT when that person raises their voice, or that staff room door slams a bit too hard or when my 17 year old son jumps out on me from a closet then....

THE BODY does it's thing and the mind is falling falling and falling. Either paralysed by shock or flying fists or a screaming run for the nearest exit...

THIS to me is complex PTSD as I experience it daily. Nicely put, excellently described. Thank you so much x

The book ' the body keeps the score ' talks about this - trauma being held by the body. Peter Levine also talks about this in his books , and the " freeze " response when we aren't able to complete either fight or flight. We are lacking a viable escape route when we are children and still feeling it in adult situations , like in a job we hate.