[Trace14]

I want to wish all the PTSD/CPTSD people a Merry Christmas and Happy New Year. If you are not celebrating Christmas, I wish you strength and courage to face your demons.
I'm not celebrating Christmas and it's a pretty rotten feeling, but this will pass. So for those who think it would be better not to partake in the family events.....it's not really.

[childofchaos831]

I have family in town for the holiday... my in laws (one in particular, really) keeps trying to lecture me about getting upset with my mother. I am getting really tired of it. They don't get it. At all. I have been given referrals to get out of that house, because it is mentally/emotionally abusive. I chose to wait to call until after the family went home, so it didn't cause drama. I cannot keep getting told to just give her (mom) what she wants... I will end up yelling at someone, probably someone who really just does not understand. So sometimes getting with family and doing the activities is not good either.

I just wanted to add that PC, and at least I, will be here for as much of this week as I can manage, if anyone needs support, or just to vent.

Take care of yourselves first and foremost.

[Trace14]

Originally Posted by childofchaos831

I have family in town for the holiday... my in laws (one in particular, really) keeps trying to lecture me about getting upset with my mother. I am getting really tired of it. They don't get it. At all. I have been given referrals to get out of that house, because it is mentally/emotionally abusive. I chose to wait to call until after the family went home, so it didn't cause drama. I cannot keep getting told to just give her (mom) what she wants... I will end up yelling at someone, probably someone who really just does not understand. So sometimes getting with family and doing the activities is not good either.

I just wanted to add that PC, and at least I, will be here for as much of this week as I can manage, if anyone needs support, or just to vent.

Take care of yourselves first and foremost.

I hope all ends up being okay. Can you take that one family member in private and talk to them. Keep your chin up they will be gone soon. Thanks for being here for everyone during this week. It means a lot just knowing someone is there if you start crashing. Thanks again.

[Open Eyes]

Merry Christmas Trace and all those who come here to the PTSD forum needing support.

[Trace14]

Originally Posted by Open Eyes

Merry Christmas Trace and all those who come here to the PTSD forum needing support.

Thanks, and thank you for always being around and understanding me.

[MtnTime2896]

Appreciate it. I survived the in-law experience yesterday, already. They do a Christmas Eve thing. I actually prefer them over my own family and while it was very anxiety ridden, it wasn't anything like the tension and silent hostility that my family has mastered. Also a lot less drama with them. Not looking forward to today, but going through with it for my mom. I don't like to break her heart so I'll be there for her. Can't sleep right now just thinking about it. Three in the morning and I'm exhausted, anxious, on edge, dreading and grieving (lost a close friend in August) currently. I won't make any predictions for the day, but damn I'm stressed. Only time will tell.

Thanks for the support, by the way. Even though it can be hard for me to come over to this side of PC, sometimes, I'm finding that the support I get here (a lot from you) is more fitting. You guys here just get it without me having to go into painful detail. Thank you.

[Trace14]

Originally Posted by Só leigheas

Appreciate it. I survived the in-law experience yesterday, already. They do a Christmas Eve thing. I actually prefer them over my own family and while it was very anxiety ridden, it wasn't anything like the tension and silent hostility that my family has mastered. Also a lot less drama with them. Not looking forward to today, but going through with it for my mom. I don't like to break her heart so I'll be there for her. Can't sleep right now just thinking about it. Three in the morning and I'm exhausted, anxious, on edge, dreading and grieving (lost a close friend in August) currently. I won't make any predictions for the day, but damn I'm stressed. Only time will tell.

Thanks for the support, by the way. Even though it can be hard for me to come over to this side of PC, sometimes, I'm finding that the support I get here (a lot from you) is more fitting. You guys here just get it without me having to go into painful detail. Thank you.

You are always welcome here. And no you don't have to discuss things if you don't want to. I most have mastered reading between the lines, and usually get it right.
Well good luck with today, are they leaving after today? If so, just make it one more day. I can't sleep either it's 0551 hrs. here and I need to go lay down. It's funny that I sleep better just as the sun is coming up, and then daylight.
Try to have a good day and come back when ever you feel up to it. I appreciate your comments and feedback as well. Take care.

[Unrigged64072835]

Hope your Christmas was good or at least tolerable.

Most of my family of origin is gone and the rest don't say much. I had a good Christmas Eve with my immediate family, and spent a quiet day today. I still get occasional flashbacks but not as bad as before.

[Trace14]

Originally Posted by Fharraige

Hope your Christmas was good or at least tolerable.

Most of my family of origin is gone and the rest don't say much. I had a good Christmas Eve with my immediate family, and spent a quiet day today. I still get occasional flashbacks but not as bad as before.

Spent it totally alone so it worked out okay. Maybe next year will be different.

[Out There]

Christmas can be very difficult for those of us with trauma - so hugs and support for everyone.

[Trace14]

Originally Posted by Out There

Christmas can be very difficult for those of us with trauma - so hugs and support for everyone.

I so agree. Glad it's almost over

[Trace14]

It's over, yes! You know the anticipation is always worse than the actual day for me. I slept most of Christmas Day with a little assistance. Slept from 7p.m. 12:30 p.m., 17.5 hours. Now New Years day......ughhh

[Parva]

Originally Posted by Trace14

It's over, yes! You know the anticipation is always worse than the actual day for me. I slept most of Christmas Day with a little assistance. Slept from 7p.m. 12:30 p.m., 17.5 hours. Now New Years day......ughhh

New Year's Eve is worse for me. All this media-driven crap about a new year and new starts, when for me, it's another year of struggling to survive. NYE always makes me feel defective and broken, like the rest of the world is celebrating and I'm a forgotten piece of afterthought. NYE always makes me wonder when things will get better..."Maybe this will be the year."

I'm with you, Trace, NYE may be an early night with a comfort movie and a little help from Doc Ambian...

[Trace14]

Originally Posted by Parva

New Year's Eve is worse for me. All this media-driven crap about a new year and new starts, when for me, it's another year of struggling to survive. NYE always makes me feel defective and broken, like the rest of the world is celebrating and I'm a forgotten piece of afterthought. NYE always makes me wonder when things will get better..."Maybe this will be the year."

I'm with you, Trace, NYE may be an early night with a comfort movie and a little help from Doc Ambian...

Just remember "Broken Crayons Still Color-author unknown" as simple as this is, it made so much sense to me. I do relate to everyone celebrating and feeling invisible but that was mostly my choice, just easier to not deal with it. Maybe this will be the year for us, who knows. CPTSD was a surprise when I got diagnosed maybe it will surprise me and go away