[CptsdAnn]

Hi , I'm new to a lot of all of this and am feeling like I'm going crazy. When I start to get stressed I can feel my eyes start twitching and I think I forget what I'm doing or thinking about. I feel like I'm here but not here?? Many times I snap out of it I can't catch my breath and I begin to sob. Sometimes I lose time during these moments. Can anyone relate? Nothing I experience is normal anymore. I feel paranoid about ppl thinking I'm paranoid. Sounds crazy but that's how I feel right now. Sometimes I just want to give up instead of fight

[Open Eyes]

Sounds like you have PTSD. Are you seeing a therapist that specializes in PTSD?

[SoupDragon]

I can relate to those things. A time where my brain and body didn'the feel like it was "me" and took control of me. It felt very scary at times. Now I still get those moments, but they are not continuous and when they start, they are not as controlling and don'the last as long. I'm not sure what has made the difference for me, but have been seeing a T, yoga, mindfulness and more recently meds, also got myself 2 dogs, who help a lot. Off the meds now and hoping I can stay stable and in control.

Have you spoken to any doctors or therapists about what'she going on for you?

[CptsdAnn]

Originally Posted by Open Eyes

Sounds like you have PTSD. Are you seeing a therapist that specializes in PTSD?

Yes. She will has not told me it's ptsd yet but she has me reading books on ptsd and practices teaching me grounding techniques

[CptsdAnn]

Originally Posted by SoupDragon

I can relate to those things. A time where my brain and body didn'the feel like it was "me" and took control of me. It felt very scary at times. Now I still get those moments, but they are not continuous and when they start, they are not as controlling and don'the last as long. I'm not sure what has made the difference for me, but have been seeing a T, yoga, mindfulness and more recently meds, also got myself 2 dogs, who help a lot. Off the meds now and hoping I can stay stable and in control.

Have you spoken to any doctors or therapists about what'she going on for you?

Thank you for sharing. I started seeing a T and totally like and trust her but when I start to talk about the abuse I slowly zone out and get these weird thoughts and sensations in my body. I hope I can someday control this. So frustrating.

[SoupDragon]

I used to zone out a lot with T in the early days. So we changed tactics and just worked on trying to control the zoning out, before thinking about looking at the traumatic stuff. We go very gently and now stop looking at that stuff at the very first signs of zoning out. I'm sure you'll get there, but I know for me it has beenn about taking really small, micro steps.