Checking in

Emdr didn’t work for me because of the complexity of my ptsd. DBT did.

Well sure with complex EMDR there are so many trauma memories it is hard to clear them all. We hit enough to get my nervous system to calm down.

Actually it was because I had no childhood resources to build upon. The most supportive figure I could find in my childhood was the janitor at my elementary school and that wasn’t going to cut it.

What does that mean. I did not have a safe person to think of either.

Lol. I thought you did emdr?

Yes I did for Two years with the damn light bar and tappers

Hmm. Who gave it to you? You sound mad?

No not mad at the therapist. I thought you were being obnoxious or something to me.

Obnoxious? Hmm. All I was doing was sharing my experience. I didn’t know you were only interested in hearing from people who experienced success with emdr? Perhaps I should reread your original post. I apologize!

I appreciate all the responses regarding EMDR. I'm having trouble getting in touch with the practitioner.

Well don't be afraid of trying it. It might help. Key is making sure the practitioner is qualified. Ask her what the process is. Google EMDR and see what you can expect to happen. If you don't try you will never know for sure if it can help or not.

I scheduled an appointment for Feb 7. The therapist did acknowledge my concerns and suggested we meet to discuss the treatment as well as my concerns. He actually called me while I was leaving him a voice message. The fact that he took the time to chat & acknowledged my concerns is fanning my little flicker of hope....what's left of it!

My new psychiatrist has never treated anyone who is "treatment resistant" or anyone with "complex" PTSD, although she is familiar with both terms. Was only my 2nd visit w her and since I stopped all RX drugs a yr ago, she really doesn't want to see me. I explained to her I'd like to see a DR as my therapist is a social worker and the area in which I live currently has much higher demand than available providers. I'm driving 40 - 45 minutes one way as it is to get treatment.

I've done 2 positive things for self today....and survived!!!!!

Good job!!!!! Keep it up!!!!

I dont have Complex PTSD but I do have PTSD... can I check in too?

Sure you can.

There's this blood pressure med called Prazosin and I really want to try it out. Supposedly it helps with nightmares. Problem is I'm already on a blood pressure med for my elevated heart rate. I'm not sure if Prazosin helps with heart rate too. It's been hell lately since I'm back to having PTSD nightmares again. I basically stay up until I pass out. Even when I'm awake I'm also experiencing hallucinations all the ****ing time. Its been hell lately.

You need to discuss this with your medical team and see what can be safely done to help you with that. Can you call them tomorrow?

I've talked about it with my doctor today at my appointment... she asked if I needed spiritual guidance because I see demons and she thinks it's because I'm conflicted with my religious beliefs after telling her I was agnostic. That's what I get for having to go to a christian doctors office/hospital.

I hope you can find something that helps with your nightmares Erti.

I do not know how I am going to make it through this busy work day. I feel overwhelming sadness and just do not want to leave the house. Yesterday I could not stop listening to Linkin Park songs and reading about Chesters suicide.

I like Linkin Park myself and his suicide was a sad one. Like any other suicide. Sometimes it's hard not to expose yourself to that kind of news... It's all over the place. I hope you can learn to cope without needing to stay in your house the whole time.

Thanks for you support. I made it to lunch. I feel better that this day is partially over but I do work until 7:45 tonight.

Severe panic attack escalated about 24 hrs ago and has been ongoing ever since. Person who offered me room in her house accused me of something which I emphatically denied. "Well you must have been the one who said something and here I thought you were trustworthy". It's not the first insensitive comment, but it is the last.

So, I'm moving back into my car. I have loaded most of my possessions, 1/2 of which have been taken to my storage unit. I haven't been able to work since leaving my job and the state in which I had lived for 22 years......in 2008. Am broke, broken hearted and see no hope....even my little flicker is gone. I wish I had found this site years ago before I got to now. Unfortunately, I will not have wifi access while living in my car. Fare thee well fellow members.

You can always go to a shelter and then apply for section 8 housing... along with foodstamps and ssi.

That sucks. No shelters around there? Can you call the police and see if there's a battered women's shelter to go to? It's too cold to be living in the car. Please look for alternatives.