[Aardwolf]

This seems the most appropriate place to put this.

I remember what emotions are, I Think I do anyway. The only one I actually feel is a pressure, the closest thing to stress.
I'm on 150mg of zoloft a day as my GP decided the previous dose wasn't working enough.

Now I just feel mostly dead to the world, even pain doesn't feel as real as it used to. Constantly having suicidal thoughts.
I know suicidal feels are a side effect of antidepressants, but its getting so much its rather worrying.

The side effects aren't too pleasant, constantly feeling; suicidal dizzy, disoriented, completely numb and just not really here any more.

[Travelinglady]

If your thoughts are getting worse about suicide, then I would get in touch with your doctor ASAP. I know they say suicidal thoughts can be created by anti-depressants, but they're nothing to mess around with. Your doctor might need to adjust your medicine or something. Okay?

[QUEEN OF WANDS]

ACQPL are you diagnosed with anything? in my experience i had with antidepressants i felt as if i had no feelings..i did not like that..when i told my family doctor he asked would i rather have none or too much..i said i would rather have too much and stopped taking them..i read something on this site(but now can not find it again),,,that some antidepressants will have an adverse reaction when used for some personality disorders leaving the patient with the sense of having no feelings...i wish i could find it again,,i would like to read it,,so i seen a psychiatrist and got a couple of diagnoses but he is sending me for a psychological assessment for personality disorders...he wanted to give me an antidepressant for one of my diagnoses but when i explained what i thought he said to wait until after the testing....hopefully i will find the right med quickly,,,,hope your day/night gets better

[sundog]

I'm really sorry you're having a hard time with the dose increase. I agree with Payne about the need to talk with your doc urgently about the increasing suicidal thoughts.

Also, I'm wondering if the increase in Zoloft was too much? Did you go straight from 100 mg to 150 mg? That's quite a big leap. I'm on 100 mg right now and I'm supposed to be going up to 150 mg too but I'm going to 125 mg first. So perhaps you could talk to your doc about going up more gradually?

Did you have any of these side effects on 100 mg per day? If not then that's a good sign. Either way, I really hope you're able to talk to your doc very soon and that you start feeling better.

[Aardwolf]

I probably should contact him. But only its if its really worth it i suppose. I'm not too sure if its really a valid thing to rattle off to him about. He's got enough to deal with.

And yes went from 100 to 150, nothing between.
And I had some side effects at 100, but no-where as mind-numbing as this.

Yes I am diagnosed, severe depression, MPD and ptsd (ptsd not really officially)
The MPD may have an affect, but they don't really know.

I should probably go and see him as you say, but I just don't feel the drive to. I don't feel like anything is really wrong, when it clearly is.

[lone_twin4]

Doctors get paid to hear people rattle about stuff. I don't personally believe that any person is a waste of a doctor's time, for anything at all. Everyone is worth it. My doctor has always stressed that if you have suicidal thoughts then you should see them immediately - after all, the point of medication is to improve your symptoms.

Sometimes it gets better after a couple weeks, but even so you should still let them know what's up. Please do get in contact with them, even over the phone might they speak with you?

[sundog]

I agree that doctors are paid to listen to us, and that what you are experiencing is serious and your doc needs to know about it. Let us know how you get on! And good luck!

[Belle1979]

When I was on one anti-depressant (think it was called Ciprimil) many years ago.. the house could have caught on fire while I was in it and seriously the only thought I would have had would have been "pretty flames"..

After being on a different med I found that the lack of emotions weren't normal really. Talk to your doc about the side effects., maybe a med change or just dropping the dose back a little might help. xxx

[sunrise]

Originally Posted by ACQPL

I probably should contact him. But only its if its really worth it i suppose. I'm not too sure if its really a valid thing to rattle off to him about. He's got enough to deal with.

Hearing about side effects and adjusting dosages and changing meds for patients are core responsibilities and duties of a physician. What could be a more valid thing to discuss with him? Please call!

[Aardwolf]

I suppose I probably should at some point If I can be bothered.

[MoonTurtle]

Originally Posted by Belle1979

After being on a different med I found that the lack of emotions weren't normal really. Talk to your doc about the side effects., maybe a med change or just dropping the dose back a little might help. xxx

I agree, lack of emotions isn't normal. I was worried about that too when I started taking antidepressant medication. But, I've been delightfully suprised to find that I actually feel GOOD much of the time now! I mean, stuff still gets me down, like negative things and stress can still bring my mood down, but it's not so bad and I rebound more quickly. If the medicine is not making you feel better, it's not working, and you should talk to your doctor.

Take care,
~MT

[Aardwolf]

Thankyou Moon, I'm going to contact him in the next few days when I have enough time to breathe.

[Rhiannonsmoon]

This actually belongs in medication not emotions. But it's good you're discussing it because it is clearly something which needs attention from your doctor. Rather than not feeling the drive to do anything, take a deep breath and do something about it, ignore the "blah" feeling and contact the doc. It causes people like me who have chronic generalised anxiety and panic disorder, some stress which is probably something we can do without

[Aardwolf]

Ohh..
Yeah, I suppose its a goodish thing.
There are many reasons, not just feelings that stop me from doing things, such as seeing the doctor..
The bit about it causing you stuff, is that me causing that.. or.. ?

[QUEEN OF WANDS]

ACQPL...i am speaking personally but i believe others would feel the same,,when someone is reaching out, i want to help,,to keep watching a person ignore the advice everyone is giving is stressful,,lack of emotion can only lead to worse things for you..when someone is suffering(whether you feel it or not) and others want to help, it causes pain for the ones who want you to get help..the world is full of pain and on this site it seems people genuinely want to heal,and help others heal..as a member of this forum you become part of a community of sharing and caring,,something many didnt have as a child..this sharing in my opinion helps,,when someone is trying to help but watching as a person falls deeper, it does hurt us all,,i imagine many/most people here wish they had more love/help/support in their life,,we are offering that to you,,to watch you keep that state of mind makes me feel stressed/pain of watching another suffer...even if you dont feel the urge to call you know it is the right choice..if you still have two hands then remember,,one is for helping others and the other hand is for helping yourself,,use it to make that call and see the doc,,it will be worth it..

[Aardwolf]

Thankyou Queen.
Was a nice reality check.

[Aardwolf]

MANAGED IT !!
Actually went to the docs today, had a nice long chat with him.
Sorting out some other meds to try..
(I did sort of cheat and asked my friend to come to make me go in.. but, yeah)

Thankyou everyone for you support so far, really appreciate it

[sundog]

Yay!! Really glad to hear this. Well done!! And I really hope the medication helps!

[QUEEN OF WANDS]

great !!having a friend go with you is good for support ,not cheating at all...keep us posted

[Aardwolf]

Thank you both
Still feeling better at the moment, so all is well !
Found a quote that may bring a smile to some faces, did mine.
"I am not discouraged, because every wrong attempt discarded is another step forward"
-Thomas Edison

[fearfulfrog]

Originally Posted by ACQPL

I probably should contact him. But only its if its really worth it i suppose. I'm not too sure if its really a valid thing to rattle off to him about. He's got enough to deal with.

And yes went from 100 to 150, nothing between.
And I had some side effects at 100, but no-where as mind-numbing as this.

Yes I am diagnosed, severe depression, MPD and ptsd (ptsd not really officially)
The MPD may have an affect, but they don't really know.

I should probably go and see him as you say, but I just don't feel the drive to. I don't feel like anything is really wrong, when it clearly is.

I also have MPD ( now DID) and PTSD( official Dx); I was stable , somewhat depressed, on and off for 16 years- even dealing with the PTSD from my childhood abuse that caused the DID- which I only had confirmed after 2 years of intense therapy with the same therapist ( he was my life saver). I refused medication during that time- I worked in a dental office with sharp instruments in people's mouths- didn't want any "fuzzy" there.

I was told that I had to TRY an antidepressant or Ins wouldn't pay for therapy ( new t this time); I was put in the hospital ( voluntarily went in- SI was great and I don't react well to medication); I was started on zoloft- My SI increased almost immediately! If I had not been in the hospital I would have acted on it.

PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE call your doc NOW- ANY increase in SI while on SSRI-type medication RARELY goes away as a side effect ( the dry mouth does but the thoughts DON'T). I have been researching for months the studies that caused the FDA to put the warning on them in the first place- 2% of people is what they quote- but that is a low-ball #. The % of people who complete the thought if they show this side effect in the first six weeks of therapy or after a dose increase is actually close to 30%; If this is something that has been there more since the dose increase, then you need to talk with doc ASAP! I was lucky to be in a safe environment- When three days had passed when my staff member noted that my thoughts had increased it sent up a flag and the medication was stopped.

Without the safety of the hospital who know what could have happened. PLEASE CALL DOC NOW!