Anger, hatred, disgust

It's all back.. and it's directed toward people in society.. I'm being a horrible person.. but I'm so mad right now.. I dunno what triggered this.. and I would love to rant to get it all out but I'm sure I'd just be getting into subjects that I shouldn't get into. I know nothing about anything and don't understand.. I would just turn out to be a hypocrite if I said what I wanted to say..

I abuse these forms too much I just realized.

i feel the same way right now. i don't know how to feel or if its ever going to get better.

(((littleforgetmenot)))

i'm a hypocrite all the time i start ranting and raving and halfway through making no sense and going back on what i have just said (i just do that when no one is around )....so i just keep ranting. sometime you just have to get your thoughts out cause they are jumbled up. i type them then let them stew for a few days go back and read them than i'm like what the f@@@ was i thinking than erase them.

Lol, well my rants are usually just me brooding over how stupid some people can be. I rant and rant and rant and it's always the same really.. I just keep exposing how immature I can be I suppose, how easily affected I am by certain things.

For example one of my irritating thoughts is how my ex Jesse spoke to me saying he wanted to talk to me again and such, kept up conversation for two days, as friends.. and then the one night I have to run off because I'm tired (oh god forbid anyone is tired at 3am!) he blocks and deletes me and I haven't heard from him since. it's like Hey, I wanna be your friend but as soon as you become human and have to sleep I'm going to delete you HAHAHAHAHAHAHA Why can't you just say "I need someone to talk to right now but it's not a permanent thing cause I don't wanna get in deep trouble with my stupid gf" OKAY why is that so hard??? I will accept that if you just say it! But more importantly, why in the world does it bother me so much? It was expected, I knew it was gonna happen and I wasn't even supposed to be talking to him anyway..

I have the same basic rant except replace ex with mom.. and then the same one again but with a childhood friend.. and again for exbestfriend.. :l

The topics that would make me seem like an arrogant fool I won't get into..

I feel same right now .. I am not that stubborn nor i have so many wishes and desires in life .. but i am extremely passionate about my career and i have so many obstacles in my way .. and when i see that my family doesn't understand me .. nor my wishes and desires .. i feel disgust, hatred, anger for them .. I simply dont understand their selfishness .. i dont know why they cant understand me .. Parents esp mother is believed to be closer to the children .. but its not like that .. i never felt that ..

I can be quite headstrong and passionate but for the most part I'm a calm collected individual.. Until someone does something I cannot understand toward me at least. I can also be very understanding if I know the person well, which is why lying to me, as Jesse did, was so unnecessary that it's irritating.

I don't have many wishes or desires, I'm not materialistic and I don't need people to like me or love me really.. All I ever ask from anyone is that they just be honest. They don't have to give me a whole life story about themselves or a novel about their feelings, but when the time comes just tell it how it is. If you don't wanna be my friend then don't be. If you wanted to go out with some other girl then tell me. If you're not planing on showing up on my birthday then say so. I have no idea why it's that hard.. It seems harder to lead someone on for months on end other than spend 5 minutes saying your two-three sentences and leaving.

I have little patience for many things.. and when something gets to me I over analyze and vent about it until I get distracted by something else. I wish I was capable of controlling my emotions when it comes to things like this.. I mean I've heard it said before that you lose to them as soon as you react; if you don't react it doesn't give them the satisfaction of having got to you.. but my personality clashes with such a statement and it makes me even more frustrated. Especially since the people I'm upset with have basically all done the same thing: lied when they needn't to, to get out of a situation.

But on someone who doesn't fit in with the others.

Our roommate is one of those people that's actions are irritating. He keeps missing days from work, and all he does is sleep. He mooches money and steals food from us. He has no life whatsoever but feels like he deserves the right to boss my brother around. He also talks about the most stupidest things in the entire world.. such as wind generators that no one can afford unless you're a millionaire and when you tell him "I'm not really interested in that" he'll say "Yeah! It's like how much power could you get from those things!" Honestly. It's happened to me. I witnessed it. This guy talks at you, ignoring your responses. You cannot win with this guy and his presence just.. annoys me to no end.

Dude! there is no one honest here today.. not even your closest family members .. what do you expect from outsiders?
Btw! if they cant tell you that they are not showing in your b-day .. maybe they don't wanna hurt you .. If you think positively!

well my mother is the big birthday liar.. she would keep saying she would come but then cancel last minute, make new plans a week later and cancel again. i didn't get anything for it till july and that was just a pair of used socks. She would say "i'm getting paid friday" so friday comes and suddenly she has no money? I get less hurt when people are honest with me and don't play games.

But you're right people aren't really honest anymore..