[DespondentDaisy]

So my new manager at work tries to be so nice yet belittles me when he gets a chance, he nitpicks at me and it's totally unfair, then he said something out of line about my bf who works there and it's like he's always trying to piss me off- and I just really need to get another job but everythings fine except for him, except it's a miniscule job and while my coworkers are nice and most of the customers are nice to me, I also know they look down on me, which is really hard to deal with.l I wish people weren't so superficial and elitist in this town. **** em. Ugh, and I want to drink sooo bad, I just got off the phone with my mom and she asked me, "You're not going to just drink are you" And I said, "What if I am?" She said that would make me an alcoholic and perhaps she's right, but right now I don't really see the harm in a drink or two . . . I know, it's not the healthy way to deal with emotions, but either is cuting myself -something I haven't done in several years now. It's just frustrating to be stuck at this 'lowly' job with the education I have, yet there doesn't seem to be anywhere else I fit in and I';m tired of other people's vanity and belittling looks and eye rolling as they turn away because they think I'm some loser. Perhaps I am. I don't push myself enough. I never have. If I lived a thousand years ago, I'd be the village philosopher, too bad that's not a smart vocation these days. You have to go where the money is, not where you're heart is. Damn. I'm having that drink now . . .

[Can't Stop Crying]

Yikes! Sounds like a lot...can you try to focus on your nice co-workers instead of your manager?

You're right, drinking won't help, is there something else you could try?

I agree, this economy is frustrating...a lot of people are waiting for brighter days in the job market - so know that you are not alone!

[Perna]

Yeah, make a "plan" for getting out of the job into something you want, more schooling, buying a house/car/getting ahead in some way that would show Them! This book helped me with that: http://wishcraft.com/. When you have your own plan you're following it's easier to ignore the naysayers.

[DespondentDaisy]

Ugh, thanks for the kind words. Yesterday we talked, and he of course took no blame for being out of line and in fact said I was.- There's no use argueing with the likes of him. He's such a pompus narcissicstic ***! argh. I need another job anyway (not like that'll be easay to find) I guess this is the little extra push I need? Argh. I'm the kind of person who dwells on stuff, even though I try really hard not to. SO I'll be at work and when I have time where my mind wanders I find myself getting upset all over again . .