What to feel...........???

this forum.... it says-- "What are emotions?".....

please, I've had a sucky day
I don't know if I'm feeling too raw or if my numbing is justified.....

He knew I cherished that garden.... yet, ....
he ruined it tonight....(by just not thinking and/or caring)
my stomach is churning.....
it's RUINED..... he screwed up.....

this churning and numbing..... it keeps me from ..... from what

this- or would this be what I should feel--or this?

why can't people be nice? why do I keep trying to be close to others?

If something was ruined by your mate-- what would you do? how would you feel?

I think I am just alone.....very alone......

Maybe angry, and also sad. That would hurt a lot! Wanting to be numb and not feel it sure makes sense. Do you think he did it on purpose, or could it have been a mistake? Why do you think it happened? That might have a lot to do in determining how you feel too.

That's awful! I know how *I* would feel -- I would want to get EVEN. And that's not good -- but that's the way I react to something like that. I'd probably do something stupid and ruin something of HIS. Then I'd be sorry for it afterwards and feel like an idiot.

Like Rapunzel said, it would help to know WHY he did it. Then you might know HOW to feel. But regardless, it's still too bad that it's ruined since it meant so much to you. Gardens take a lot of work.

My prayers are with you -- please take care of yourself. And if he does things like this often, please think about this relationship -- are you sure it's a healthy one?

God bless!!! Hugs, Lee

Or even just identify your thoughts about why you think he did. It isn't so much the reality that determines how you feel as your interpretations.

this is why you shouldn't put everything you have into one thing. If it gets destroyed or corrupted you don't know what to do. I think just try other things, get some epiphanies from things you haven't experienced before. that should help

thanks so much for this.... someone else understanding sure helps to feel less alone and "crazy". (meaning- I don't know what I should feel and if what I feel isn't normal)

He said he just wasn't thinking.....
*sigh*....
him NOT thinking in regards to me and us, happens A LOT. first he got mad at me for being upset.... that's usually what he does-- gets mad at me coz I express upset.

I rarely expressed emotions as a child-- to laugh set me up for some kind of attack (as I'd be noticed) and to cry set me up for ridicule. I've tried to stay in a non-feeling gliding-type mode all my life-- but things happen, like my treasures being ruined-- then that results in some kinds of emotions to swell up and I get confused.

I think I need a bit of you in me! (I admire that in people!) I've not ever been able to retaliate on others and oh man, has there been times when I'm sure others would have done so.

thank you- this is something I've thought about. like the battered child-- as an adult it's all they know so they are unfortunately drawn to same.
was an invisible child and somehow it's followed me..... blech....
I so hate feeling it...
invisible is just one step from non-existant.....
it scares me, as I teeter on the edge of invisibleness trying not to stumble into the darkness of non-existance.

wow- rap! this is very profound I need some time to "chew" on this.... wow......
Yes, interpretations sure drive the car, don't they.......

hmmmm.... I've sure got to talk about this with the T. i see.

thank you so much.

fins